Punk Rock Papi

Our relentless honeymoon....

2011-11-30T09:00:00.000-05:00

                    "You're the sky that I fell through..."
                                       -Owl City

                   "Lost in my own misery, until you came and helped me to see, that I don't have to be alone. Thanks for giving this lost heart a home....."
                                       -The Bouncing Souls

   I suppose this is what we consider 'obligatory posts'but I never feel obligated to share one of my most favorite days of the year. Today, I am sharing with you the cheesiest post of the year! Believe me, I know I write some cheesy posts, but on 11/30, its just plain gross....

Relentless Honeymoon? I have often been told in the past year how our marriage is 'young' and we have been told since the beginning that we are 'honeymooning'. So does it actually end? I like to think for us, it never will.

It all started with a Myspace message and a night of texting. The rest is all history....

For our first year, I was in awe of how far we had come in only a couple years. This year, I am in awe of how much more I love my wife and the life we are creating together. You'd think two people who spend 99.9% of their time with each other would pretty much be sick of each other, my day never ends unless I'm sharing it with her...plain and simple.

Stephanie is a beautiful force to be reckoned with. She will come to you guns a blazing with honesty. Her worst enemies are those who are unwilling to hear the truth. I fell in love with Steph for her honest, in your face, ability to connect with you. She sees you for who you are within seconds and will either exploit your strengths or crush your weaknesses. I fell in love with her because her jokes are also as bad as my own.....she has an infinite patience with someone as ridiculous as me. She is my muse, she inspires me in ways I don't even realize until the time has come and gone. Half of me thrives simply by being apart of her life and I love her all the way through for it!

She has also given me the best gift of all, her heart and an amazing child who continues to mold me and shape me into the greatest man I could ever want to be. A child who also reminds us both of what its like to look into our future....

Now that the cheese is old and moldy....

I walk into our third year together with nothing more than renewed vigor towards the great times ahead of us, the times we intend to share together, the many amazing years we have planned together. I came from a different place when I met Steph, but our road just goes on and on now. I look forward to growing old with her and watching our children grow and start their own families. We both come from a place where values on family have been placed at the bottom but we refuse to let ours feel that way...maybe we are setting a new trend for both our families...

One of the best things to our successful relationship is the fact we have done this on our own. We have called the shots for each other and it has made all the difference as we walk the road for tomorrow....

Steph is my heart, my ooshie booshie, my rape vagina, my sexy pants retard, my Mami to my Papi, the cheese to my mac, the crack to my rock....

What more could I ask for?

I love you Steph, thanks for two years of making me the luckiest man I know....

You pretty!

Mami's mix tape Vol. 2 Cheese with us!

2011-11-30T08:00:00.000-05:00

As the anniversary of being married to my most favorite person is here, I leave with you the last round of all things cheesy for Mami and her mix tapes. A silly lovey dovey post is set to follow this one. So listen, enjoy and jam out!

Owl City- If My Heart Was A House
I discovered this song earlier in the year. Always take me to a thinking place and its a sweet song. This vid is a great find and appeals to the weird, indie nature of things we enjoy so much

The Bouncing Souls- Like The Sun
I have found alot of songs by Bouncing Souls that I often relate to my awesome life with my Booshie. This is a song about my life in the beginning with Steph and how things ended up the way they are....

Tom Petty-Here Comes My Girl

Seriously, Tom takes the words right of my mouth....

Paramore-Where The Lines Overalp
A favorite since this album came out for both me nad Mami.....

Mami's Mix Tape Vol. 2 Cry with us!

2011-11-29T08:00:00.000-05:00

As our marriage grows and becomes the great thing it is and as it evolves further and further into something more grand than we can ever expect as we grow older and wiser, every road has its bumps. I can safely say, for all our small disagreements, we have never had any real, actual fights. We have probably seen our share of bullshit from other relationships that fighting it out got us nowhere. I am proud to boast that any real annoyances between us never lasted for more than an hour or two, and never a fight. Once you start saying mean, nasty things, you can never take it back. I strongly believe that once you can start saying horrible things to each other, it gets easier to just keep doing it. If I start feeling the need to say hateful things, I might as well start planning the inevitable divorce....

However, we are never without frustration as far as life goes. I come home frustrated because of issues with work, we both have tough days with Nate and sometimes we are just frustrated. I think our toughest battle as a couple has been dealing with friends and family in need. We both have people we care about on each side who we are always trying to reach out to and help. Its so hard to understand why we can't be there for them because they choose to do the opposite of what we ask or offer. We offer support, love, advice and understanding and anything else we are able to offer. But unless it comes with an easy way out i.e. money or a free ride, noone wants our help.

The saddest part is, for all the love and support we offer, its never long before we have it turned back on us and it makes me sick to my stomach. When I moved to SC in need of a new change on a life that was destroying me, all I wanted was help and support and love, instead I got grief and more questions than answers. Steph always keeps her heart open when our friends and family are willing to look past themselve as am I.

The fact we are so supportive of one another and of course, Nate who is simply our great inspiration for all things that make our lives great.

These songs are my reminder over the past year of those struggles......

Deadmau5- Raise Your Weapon
"Ripping through like a missle, ripping through my heart. Rob me of this love..."

Rise Against- Savior
"I don't hate you, I just want to save you while there's still something left to save..."
We both have sisters that remind me of this struggle to make things right, its like trying to reach heights unseen....

Mami's Mix Tape Vol.2 Laugh with Us!

2011-11-28T08:00:00.000-05:00

So I was travelling through time the other day and I found this old(new) photo of Steph and I. Some things never change apparently....

As I come upon my second anniversary of being married to the most amazing person I know, I think of what makes us laugh. I guarantee that about 2/3rds of our relationship is based on making each other laugh and giggle. Whether its through poorly told jokes or cheap shots with ticklespots, theres hardly a shortage of laughter between us.

In our second anniversary, I am continuing the fine tradition of making mix tapes for Mami. Maybe not as excessive as before but nonetheless, I think its a nice touch. This post and these songs serve to remind Mami and I of things that make us laugh both at ourselves and at each other....

Tripping Daisy- I Got a Girl
"I got a girl who speaks her mind, I got a girl who will argue anytime..."

Flashback to my days as a bright red hair dyed annoying teenager, I loved this band! Their dyed hair and ridiculous lyrics were perfect for me. This song, just reminds me of our first few months together. Testing each other, feeling other out and fucking with each other which resulted into the awesome we have today.....

The Lonely Island- No Homo
If anything is likely to come from Mami's mouth, its always been 'hey, no homo!' so it was hiliarious when we found this song as we discovered this band. It is now my ringtone for when she texts me....
I must also point out how hard it was to find anything to post because theres so many other videos claiming to be 'before the Lonely Island guys' or stating how much they hate the phrase cause its offensive....

Morningwood- Take Off Your Clothes
I play this song for Mami whenever we are in the car. We always lurrrvvvv to see each other naked! And you can't watch either!

Oh, how the time flies....

2011-11-27T21:02:00.001-05:00

"The conclusion is as inescapable as it is moronic..."
-Futurama

As another month passes from my last blog, I am back! I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving and remembered all the things that make them thankful. I also hope that you remain thankful for these things throughout the year and not just one day where you are all gorging on delicious food. It seems we are so quick to jump into rushing this year once Turkey Day visits and now we are at the local retail shops by 10pm, putting pepper spray into each other's face for $200 tvs. Its pretty unreal and it seems we get so crazy these days that we are missing the point.

Thats another rant for later I suppose....

Another post about how I'm back for a moment to let you know I am alive and well. By the time I sit and do these little posts, I am filled with this desire to rant and rave and be a crazy person. I'm always adding things to a list in my phone about things I want to post about. Hopefully I'll get back to it soon...

Lately, its all about work, I am constantly working as hard as I can. There are ups and downs and enough to keep my plate full. I cooked another sampling feast like last year and had alot of successes. When not staying on top of the work thing, its me and the family. We are always looking to keep life fun for Nate. Money keeps us from doing the things we would like to do but it doesn't stop us from seeking adventure and fun. Mami is our glue who keeps us from failing to enjoy the finer moments, she keeps all of us afloat by finding new and fun ways to have a blast with each other without breaking the bank.

And this is our 2nd year as a married couple this week, the next few days will be sure to point that out. Its amazing how the time flies and we've come this way with only many more to come........

Happy Halloween!

2011-10-31T23:31:00.000-04:00

With literally 45mins left in the day, I wanted to send some Halloween wishes and hope everyone had an awesome fun day. I have learned that candy turns the monkey into a rampaging crazy person, but already hes enjoying the late nights and silly movies. Not to mention all the ridiculous, fun things we like to do with him.

I intend to have a more fun post about our Halloween adventure maybe in the next day or two. But for now, I am running on fours of sleep after 12 hours of work and our trick or treat march.

This is a good time to let you know, I have a Facebook page now! Thats right, its not just a Tweeterer thing now. So, check out Papi's FB and give it a like or two. Don't forget to enter the Shutterfly giveaway and win some free cards!

You know whats scary about Halloween? The fact that someone out there is actually 'shocked' the Kim Kardashian wedding didn't work out?

Don't be a tool or puppet....

Last but not least, I am posting my favorite Halloween video, which also happens to be the monkey's favorite as well and since its pretty much all about him, I pass on this awesome to you!

Now I'm off to raid a two year old's candy stash!

Cheers!

Shutterfly! with Giveaway!

2011-10-25T20:34:00.001-04:00

Last year, Mami and I took advantage of a great deal with Shutterfly for our Christmas Cards. We both have alot of friends and family spread out all over from South Carolina all the way to Colorado and Iowa and even California. In my line of work, its virtually impossible to make stops in all these places during the holidays and we are big on keeping pictures on the ready for our "oh so spreadout" friends and family.

Our cards turned out so great last year that I am super excited to be able to share this opportunity with you the readers as I am passing on a chance to giveaway cards over to you this year!

Shutterfly not only does just one theme of cards, they a wide variety of cards and products for all your photo occasions. I thought it would be great next year to use them for Nate's Birthday Party cause you only turn 3 once!

Shutterfly even has photo books available for all your collections that you collect throughout the year.

We received a few Shutterfly cards from our blog friends and since I am giving away 3 codes, we hope to see even more! Get crackin' cause the holidays will be here before you know it!

I'm not dead yet mother#$%&^@@

2011-10-01T00:31:00.000-04:00

"Bright sunny days, dark sacred nights and I think to myself, what a wonderful world......"
-Louis Armstrong

So I thought it would be fun to drop in a little quick post to remind you all I am not dead. Its good to see I still have all my followers give or take a couple who left probably cause I'm lazy and haven't been giving anyone anything rant worthy or interesting to read. Not that I would ever call my blog interesting but hey, its been fun for me!

Between me and Mami and our currently one laptop, I have just found it easier to play video games while Mami works on her blog. She contributes alot to hers and connects with alot of people and does many reviews so I find it more important to not take that away. Doesn't mean I haven't had any chances to do so, Mami is very encouraging for me to do so but I just haven't made the effort.

I am working my way back in slowly but its a case by case basis and I hope to get a few good blogs in soon. For now I will leave you with this awesome video of the monkey breaking out his greatest driving jam......also, stop by Monday for a post by yours truly for the friends you love blog Mami has been working with.
Until then, wave your freak flags high!

Project Kit Kit (Magic Moment link up)

2011-09-14T20:04:00.001-04:00

So Mami came to me with an opportunity to express a shared moment to link up with Shell at Things I Can't Say and post about something shared with someone special. Of the 9879387 wonderful moments I have shared with both Mami and the monkey, I was reminded of this one moment over the past year that I have not only wanted to blog about but also is as ridiculous as it is sweet.

We moved into our apartment around December of last year and within a month or so, we noticed several kitties wandering around. Missing the idea of having a cat around, I figured I could easily fool these cats with a little food and affection into being my friends. While they took well to the free grub, these cats were obviously wild and not about to let some crazy man pet them. The kitties at the window drew the attention of my partner in crime, the monkeyboy! His newfound love of animals had him very excited.....

It led us to the introduction of this little cat.....

And of course, this guy was more than enthusiastic. He dubbed the kitty "Kit Kit". This cat had no intentions of ever being our friends but yet, she never went away. Nate used to get so excited and play hiding games with her and they shared lots of window love like those creepy people who visit one another in prison(minus the boobies). Over the course of six months, the game was the same. She would lay around the patio, Nate and I would feed her on my lunch breaks then she runs away.

We had several 'kitty hunter' moments....

Window love......

The end result being a cat who never leaves, lays around our house beggin for delicious treats and happy snuzzles. And it only took about six months of persistence of myself and my crazy boy and our love of kitties. It was a fun time shared with my little man that obviously paid out in the end. I have a snuggle buddy(thats furry) and he has a new best friend.......

Monday Minute 5/9/11

2011-05-09T08:00:00.008-04:00

Its that time again, its Monday!!! Time for some of those questions with answers you just HAVE TO KNOW!! Hosted by my friend, Ian who likes to keep it fun and interesting. If you want to play along, swing on by The DDOR and get the questions so you can share your answers. Don't forget to link up!

And herrrrrreeee you go!
1 - Since so many of you were so willing to wrestle naked with another member of the same sex for a million dollars, let's say we double it to $2,000,000 and put it on PPV for all to see. Still willing?

                If you're willing to throw money at me and I'm not getting cornholed, then bring it on! My life is a series of self inflicted embarassing moments, so whats a televised moment to me? You throw the money in, I'm sold!


2 - You just found a $100 bill on the ground while walking around your neighborhood. What's your first thought to do with the money?
                   do a 360 degree look around to make sure its not a trick, take the money and run! First thought involves several beers, a lightning rod and a midget in a pink tutu....

3 - Mother's Day is coming up. Name one thing you learned from your Mother that you'd like to share.
                   To dare to dream openly and always see beyond whats in front of me....

4 - We all know that Nickelback, Kiss, Creed, Rush, the Foo Fighers and Axl Rose suck ass, name another band that should be added onto this famed list.
                 This is such an open ended questions cause SOOOOOO many people suck out there. Let me say first that any celebrity with a reality show who thinks they have singing talents just because they have their lives in front of a camera 24-7 and want to whore their bullshit agenda on there should be on that list. I'm looking at you Jersey Shore.....
Also, that skank Kesha and about 98% of any trendy hip hop artist out there needs to be shot for their one hit wonder overproduced garbage....just sayin'

and finally...

5 - Have you ever had a zit on your ass?

            I'm sure its occurred but I can't say I've been keeping track. Should I post up pictures of my butt for your viewing pleasure and inspection?

Happy Mami's Day!

2011-05-08T19:05:00.000-04:00

             "Nobody ever could make me smile, until you came around with your pretty style....."
                                         -Rivers Cuomo

           Happy Mother's Day! I've got to drop that yearly post to all the wonderful ladies who deserve this day out of all days. It might not be as important as a birthday or Christmas or any of that, but its nice to honor all that we love about the most important ladies in our life. It sort of singles out the moment for them and yeah, they deserve it....

I do think noone should ever have a day to only remember someone important but I enjoy Mother's Day because its another excuse to remind the special ladies(and there are many) how special they are for all they do.

Yeah, theres a Father's Day but I feel Moms deserve it more than Dads....

For all my Friends, Aunts, Grandmas, Cousins and anyone else who has brought a child to this world and have committed to the shaping of their lives and to any one else who has needed you more than you will ever know........you are wonderful, beautiful and of course, AWESOME ladies! You have given a piece of yourself to the world and you continue to make all our lives better just being in it. From the moment you got pregnant, you formed this bond with all these amazing people to be and you probably know the human heart better than the rest of us can ever to imagine. Keep doing what you do and thanks for all you share!

RIP to my mother she may not be with us but she gave me a life that I can never thank her enough for. I have never spent Mother's Day with my Mom, but she always knew how much I loved her. Even when I wasn't being the best towards her. Her life of dreams and having an open mind and open heart has shown me where I can get some of my best(and worst) qualities that make me who I am. I might not have grown up with my Mom, but I definitely took after her alot. She is missed every day.....

For my badass Mami wife lady, you are everything and more. Not enough mushy gushy words have ever been able to express the amazing that you bring into my life every day. You are always there when I need you most and you have started our son on am amazing road to being an amazing child. You never let him think he is anything less than a badass like yourself and he will take that with him for many years to come. You bring so much into both our days that we would be lost without you. Not because you keep our clothes clean, and our house freakishly organized all the time. But because you have always given more than you ever take. You give every piece of yourself and more and it shows in our son's smile and laughter every day.
I certainly couldn't do this without you and we make an awesome team. There couldn't be anyone better to raise our son and make more babies with.....thanks Mami!!

In one last act of lame retard love and all that jazz that makes everyone around us vomit everywhere, this song is for you and always reminds me of the best Mami out there.....

The Monday Minute- the Rebirth

2011-05-02T21:11:00.001-04:00

Holy crapsnack! The Monday Minute with my friend Ian has returned! He let it go a while back and I tried to keep up with Cristy's but it didn't work out. Cristy tried and did her best but it sort of missed the zing and fun that Ian puts into it. So without further ado, here are the Monday Minute answers and don't forget to post on of your own with the answers and link up!! Welcome back, Ian and NEVER EVER leave us again, ya jerk!

1 - Where aside from a toilet have you taken a dump? Explain.
          Amongst the forest and the trees. I can barely stand doing that so despite a certain anticipation of crapping on cars and other random things, it just won't happen. Its one of the few things that would keep me from surviving the Zombie Apocalypse, a desire to shit on porcelain
2 - At this point do you really think that Magic Johnson has HIV/AIDS?
        The only answer I can offer for this is, his johnson must really be magical to make him one of millions to be able to carry on the long life he has lived so far.

3 - Would you wrestle a member of the same sex, nude, in pudding for 10 minutes for one million dollars?
                   I'm sure there are a million other things I would rather do for a million dollars. But ten minutes? Fuck it, its a small scary price to pay for a lump sum of cash, and if I start feeling violated, I get to kick him in the face and then punch him in the dick! I signed up for naked wrestling, not a gay fuckathon....

4 - Squash just doesn't sound very tasty. What say you?
                I looooooooovvvvveeee squash, especially in a spanish dish I like to make, or grilled, or fried or eating it off of Mami's hot nekked body(just saying.....)

5 - Is it worth the effort?
                Its always worth the effort if it means something to you

Fawkin groovin.....

2011-04-29T23:06:00.000-04:00

Hey hey! Haven't done a fawky fawk in a while! Even though I could have given several hundred fawks the other day, I think that moment has passed by now. But when Boobies! has a few fawks, I hate to miss an opportunity to throw a few in myself.
Got a complaint or some rawr fawks? Drop a post and link up on Boobies' site.
So heeeerrrreeee goes!

Fawwwwwwkkkkkk Yoooouuuuuuu,

-negative spins that turned me into a fucking grouch all last week

- The Royal Wedding business. Seriously, does it need to be that important? There are other things going on in the world. While it is a big event, I can't believe people are so stupid they've been obsessing about it for months. The event isn't a big deal and Americans shouldn't be giving as much of shit as they do

-The Obama birth certificate business....I don't know if anyone gets the idea of how big the President's job is, but they do a very extensive background check before they even let you have the job. Just because he doesn't want YOU to know about it, doesn't mean it wasn't already known.

-Donald Trump, you're an idiot with a pocket full of cash and 3 bankruptcies. You have no real say in how this country should spend money, unless you're willing to chip in some of your own money. I sure hope you don't end up running this country one day.....

-to the asshole neighbors above us who must have moved finally after only a few months. FAWWWWKKK YOOUUU! I'm so glad you and your racetrack, late night construction company is no longer waking my son up and pissing me off when I get home late

-anyone who just can't let things go. Not everything has to be a battle, don't let your arrogance rule your emotions....

and thats my Fawky blah fawk!

Insert Blah here......

2011-04-27T23:22:00.000-04:00

                       "Connect the dots? More like set down the book and have a beer!!"
                                                        -Family Guy

The past week and a half has only type of update to express....aggravating!!!! Its been a week and a half long battle with annoyance, all work related. Its not often it happens but its bound to happen every once in a while where it seems like every ship is sinking and all you have is a spoon....... Yeah, its been so frustrating that it makes as much sense as the last sentence I just made.

For all intensive purposes, it was Easter Week, and in any service related industry, any holiday is busy. In the retail and grocery business, its almost a week of busy. With it comes added tension and mounting frustration. Its never been a problem and its always managable. I am 98% in a good mood but I think it was inevitable even I was likely to snap. For once, it wasn't customers, they were actually pretty awesome. I think it was a collective buildup of ongoing issues suddenly coming in to play.

            Since it has come to my attention that my Facebook page was viewed often enough by people I work with to compromise my private life, its better to leave out the gory details. It basically ended up with one person losing their job and another disregarding my "private" aka my not at work life by bringing my Facebook into my professional life and frustrations with a manager. For the first time in all my years in management, I had to delete every person from work  and take off any association with my company via Facebook. And of course, a boss who has felt the need to make everyone's life difficult whenever he visits lately.....

Its been a long week folks.....

All that sort of built itself into a ball of frustration and even though its finally come and gone. It left me sort of drained at this point. I had another day off today and have been absolutely blah all day. I have been lethargic, and possibly even moody at this point. Enjoyed my day off with my family who always keeps me happy but I almost felt like I couldn't give them what they wanted today as I usually do.

I'm just glad these days are very few and far between and after a day of feeling blah and not resorting to drinking beer. Video games however have provided some mind numbing entertainment in between.

The silver lining? It was EASTER for crying out loud! While it may have been hectic and crazy at work, we had a blast at home. I have not been off for Easter Sunday in years and we went the full 9 on it. We got the monkey a basket and hid eggs for him to find and then we spent the day together. Then Papi cooked everyone a traditional ham dinner with fixins'.

We do not celebrate Easter in the traditional sense as far as religion is concerned. In case you haven't been reading, we don't believe in religion. However, I do believe Jesus is a Zombie....read the facts and remember, Zombie Jesus loves you!

We celebrated it as I remember celebrating it when I was a kid, minus the forced dress up and church with my family. We celebrated it as a family and by making it a fun experience for our chocolate addicted child with a love of stuffed bunnies. I haven't truly enjoyed this holiday in many years like we did this years. One of the last times I had Easter Sunday off, was about 6 years ago and my friends and I went on an all day Easter drinking bender cause we had nothing better to do. Oh how the times have changed.....

Though the week had its rough parts, I am always one ready to move forward. It was frustrating when you feel you can't do enough and what you are doing is only making you run into walls. However, the past is over and all I can do start fresh in the new day......

If you can read this....

2011-04-27T00:16:00.000-04:00

                            Well, you get the rest of it at this point don't you?

I was offered an opportunity by Roadkill Tees, a site for funny t-shirts to review their products and was sent the shirt above. An ideal "going out for the sole purpose of getting hammered and showing off your awesome shirt" type of shirt, or in my case, its an ideal shirt when I'm about to drink beer and play video games at home. The shirt was received fairly quickly and the material was 100% cotton. Three washes in and the lettering is still in perfect running condition.

The website for Roadkill T-shirts  is an ideal place for someone with my lovable sense of humor. They have an arsenal of shirts with a whole different variety of shirts to choose from. You can choose from anything from drinking shirts, movie and tv to even shirts for ladies with a need for a shirt that makes anyone laugh.

I love the site because its a great "go-to" place for someone like myself, with an off beat sense of humor. If given the opportunity, I could spend dollars upon dollars on so many shirts there. They easily cater to all my varieties and love of oddities. Now if they could only start working some Calvin and Hobbes shirts, I'd be set!!!

The end result being this is a great site when you are looking for a shirt that expresses a love of fun and great site for funny tees.

They also carry American Apparel  as well!

Looking for a giveaway? Check them out on Facebook and get in on the fun via http://www.facebook.com/roadkilltshirts

Hope you enjoy them as much as I do!

Happy Sunday!!!

2011-04-17T09:00:00.002-04:00

I figured it just wouldn't be Sunday without a little music to start off the best day off the week....

Daft Punk-Technologic

I first heard this the other day, its so catchy! Plus the creepy robot that only nightmares can produce seems to be a perfect touch.....

Nothing says ROCK! better than stuffed animals moshing.....I've had this song in my head all week. Its a great song and I'm a huge Rise Against fan. I didn't even realize how big this song had gotten until I heard it on the radio while passing through Charlotte a few months back, and then saw the video shortly after. Great band, and great song....

Happy Sunday!

You know I'm your hero....

2011-04-16T20:51:00.000-04:00

                "Talk talk talk, don't talk to me, you got something I just don't need...."
                                                             -Face to Face

                "Wow, I never thought I'd feel sorry for someone with a tattoo of a Leprechaun throwing up on a book..."
                                                             -Happy Endings

What? Yeah so I haven't been blogging, I made no promises. I've wanted to update my blog on the ongoings of Papi but theres always so much going on in the world that trying to lump into a blog just is impossible since I'm horribly known to babble endlessly. So to bring you up to speed on things, I will tell you the same thing I tell people I don't speak to often unless I receive a random call.

What has Papi been up to?

The usual, work work work, beer, Mami, and spending lots of time with this guy.....

Yeah yeah, what else is new right? It seemed like there was a long of stretch of time where I wasn't getting as much time in with the monkey as I would have liked or I was simply too tired to keep up with him. The past couple weeks or so I feel like we have resparked our bond and found a different understanding with each other. We are like addicts for each other and its a great thing to be a part of, its very similar to what I share with Mami. I am realizing how closel tied the three of us are. Not that it was ever different but sometimes the feeling can be more intense or maybe we hit a point where it gets better than it already was? Whatever it is, I'm enjoying it. The kid is growing and I don't want to miss a beat. I feel like he has been progressing at the accelerated rate, instead of learning something new every week or month, its a day to day thing. His mind craves as much knowledge as it does fun and hes doing great.

We are in the early beginnings of potty training, it probably better to call it "he takes off the diaper randomly and we run him to the toilet in hopes he will pee in it". I spent ten minutes reading "one fish, two fish, red fish, blue fish" while waiting to see if he will go. No luck! Mami has been having a better success rate so far. This will be a long road.....

Mami and I are developing green thumbs!!! I participated in a blog hop with Mami and several other bloggers. The was an odd number of people so I was ~~held at gun point screaming~~ volunteered to play along. It was fun, I made a new friend Jayme, from Random Blogette who sent me some cool stuff for monkey, he shared love of Dave Matthews on cd and I sent her ~~drugs~~ movies and Deadmau5 shit. The best part? She knew we were wanting to start a mini garden, so of course hooked us with mini starter veggies, herbs and flowers. This has now become some fun large project for Mami and I. We put together a garden in the corner of our outside patio and planted some in pots. While we grow, our next project is getting lawn furniture and bbq stuff.

Its a work in progress....

Things seem to be mostly going well with 'the beetis'. I think I'm supposed to use the prescription for a glucometer but....garden! So far I am taking small steps, not much exercise yet but fortunately I am always on the move at work. I have begun scaling down my caffeine and intake of sugars. Most of the time this is successful until payday when Mami and I ~~gorge like hungry beasts~~ fall off the wagon a little. I probably shouldn't have eaten this....

But it was oh so tasty, I posted it on Facebook and the public was not pleased.
Sometimes you just have to dive into the madness for a few moments and the crawl back out, and my belly said it was well worth the clogging arteries. You just can't turn down awesome!

Did you know today was Record Store Day? How could you not?
If it was up to me, I would happily be sitting at a local awesome store(which is rare in this part of the south) listening to my awesome favorite cds and records. But alas, I was playing the part of working stiff! I love to support my local stores(when they exist!). However, I have been diggin up lots of extra music the past week. Found some Skrillex, Kaskade, finally got the Daft Punk collection. I'm actually very stoked I found a good Face to Face collection, I have been looking forever.

Papi(and probably Mami) is hungry....its time to fix that. I've got my first solo beer and wine inventory(yummy!) early in the morning so chop chop!!!!

Thinking of Mom.....

2011-04-10T00:57:00.000-04:00

"Amongst the vending machines and year old magazines, in a place where we only say good bye......"
-Death Cab For Cutie

Today marks the five year anniversary since my mother passed away in Gulfport, Mississippi. I always have alot to say each year about my mother. She was a kind hearted, dreamer who always knew how to laugh and love. I always remember my Mom for the woman I always dreamed about before I met her when I was 10 and the woman she was for the sixteen years after that.

My Mom became lost in her journey through life and unable to find the answers she so desperately sought, she got caught up in drugs and a lifestyle that I don't even know(or want to know) the details to. In the end, all my Mom wanted was to be loved, to see her dreams thrive. Its too easy for us all to get caught up in messes and forget what was most important to us, especially after all the things that led us to the easy ways out.

The last time I saw her, she was suffering from liver failure, her skin yellow from jaundice and her body was just dying with each moment that passed. Even though she had been in a coma already, she cried after I took her hand when I first got there at 4am after a long bus ride from Colorado. Almost 36 hours later, once her brain lost all function, we let them pull the cord. She passed away quickly and peacefully....

The last time I spoke to her, she had been in the hospital for a few days. I called and told her I loved her and to take it easy and get better. She was already slipping into her coma as I couldn't understand anything she had to say.

She called me two weeks before, and I realized shortly after she passed that it was around on her birthday. I told I was busy working and she asked "Is it not ok for your mother to call anymore?". I hadn't been talking to her because of her poor choices she had been making so I brushed her off.

We made peace the night before she passed away, I took my time with her, held her hand and wished her well.

The only regrets I have taken from my mother's death is that she is not here to enjoy the birth and lives and her grandchildren. She spent time with my niece and nephew(who loved his Nana to pieces) but now theres my son and my youngest niece. My mom wanted grandkids, especially from me, she always asked me when I was going to get married and give her grandkids, she was sort of pushy about it even haha

Though I miss these things and wish she was here to enjoy them, I am reminded daily of the day we lost her eventually led me to where I am today. Its what pushed me to be closer to my family and eventually led to meeting my wife and having our son and the life we have now. Theres always the possibility things may have turned out this way, but it was an event that pushed things in the direction they are in now. It wasn't easy either, depression, drinking, drugs and general stupidity also had to play their roles before I found what I was looking for as well and understood where I needed to be.

Today I remember my Mom for the awesome lady she always was as Mom, Aunt, Sister Nana and friend, and the way she passed away as a reminder never to miss a beat and enjoy the moments given us with the people we love....

RIP Mama Jan......3/31/60 to 4/10/06

The song I posted always reminds me of the weekend I spent in the hospital in Gulfport, Mississippi. Always stays close to me.....

My 'perfect marriage' (as told by Dad) PYHO

2011-04-06T08:00:00.003-04:00

                                         "I swear I'm giving up my insides to the one that I adore. I swear this world is big enough for you and I, but I'll give you more. I'm coming home today, to wipe the tear drops from your eyes, I'm totally enamored by your life......"
                                                         -No Use For A Name

                                          "And tonight, we can truly say, together we're invincible..."
                                                         -Muse

Alright, Mami wrote a post a week or so ago and I feel this need to vent my Papi rage(what else is new?) about the same subject. Mami and I both feel very strongly about where our marriage started and where its going and how its changed the very fabric of who we are as people and made us better.

From day one, I have never quite understood all the crazy mindless shit that comes out of people's mouths in regards to marriage, children and relationships. Even the standard in television and other media is run by this norm that everything is doomed to fail. What are all the things I have heard so far? An essay;

-wait til 5 years, then you'll really hate it

-women do all the parenting, Dads deserve all the time off cause they work

-everyone cheats

-yours will never last, noone's does

-how can you stand to be with the same person for so many years? Its not right

-if you're not openly fighting, then you're hiding something

-everyone lies and holds something

it can go on and on endlessly the bullshit people like to spew forth. Its as if most people are truly unhappy with their situation and have just settled with whatever they found. The most frustrating of these comments we always hear from friends and family;

"We don't have your perfect marriage, not everybody's life is like that..."

Fuck you!

Seriously, downing something somebody is perfectly happy and content with because you are unhappy with your outcome makes almost no sense. Its like seeing someone's rainbow and then taking a shit on it cause its not yours. I don't expect anyone to look at what I have and have the same. Unfortunately this runs on a person to person basis.

My marriage is not perfect, it IS amazing however. I didn't just settle for the first person that came along and just start squeezing out babies in an effort to fuel a dying fire in my relationship as most tend to do.

"I'm bored and wish my signifigant other noticed me, better throw away the birth control!"

I settled for the right person who knew all my quirks, my life before her and was ok with who I am, even if I'm not perfect. She loves me and I love her and we love our son. Thats all there is to it, we write new pages every day in our lives. We don't fight but we may disagree from time to time. We never hold grudges and we never nitpick each other. We are both flawed as people but it doesn't even compare when we are putting each other on a pedestal.

I didn't choose to spend the rest of my life with someone I despise......

Our situation was born out of something unlikely. I was a big drunken angry mess with depression issues due to my mom dying and dealing with a past relationship that fucked me over. I was babysitting a house of drunken ~~children~~ 25 year olds who didn't have jobs and were content to let me pay the bills and supply the beer. Not to mention I was angrily managing a shithole restaurant to pay said bills. She was dealing with her own issues that were similar but different as well.

Our paths crossed, we ~~made drunk touchy~~ spent an evening with beverages and then bam! She was pregnant....

We had a few choices ahead of us, "abort mission", adoption or make this work. We knew each other but didn't know each other completely. We were just starting to know that we liked being around each other more and more each day when we found out she was pregnant.

We had no reason NOT to move forward so we gave it a try. You know what made it work? Working hard for it!!!

We invested so much of ourselves into what we have today to make it work. The problem with most people and those who call sarcastically call our marriage 'perfect' is that they aren't willing to work for what they have. Its easier to throw your hands in the air and call the other person an asshole.

I'm not saying its all easy and everyone is meant to be together, but instead of pointing fingers and blaming everything and everyone else and downing a good thing when you see it, look at your own situation. Maybe if you invested more into what you have already and making less excuses, you wouldn't feel the need to down everyone else and gain the best of what you have......

I love my wife and I love my son. Loving my son came naturally and will never change and came from the love I worked hard for with Mami. That also, will never change.....

The Papi has spoken......

Some things just need to be said....

2011-04-05T08:03:00.001-04:00

I heard this song and I figured I had to share my love with the world. Sometimes its just good to say FU for no plain reason, you didn't do anything wrong and neither did anyone else. However, FFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUU! and what better way to express it than with barber shop ska music?

Enjoy! and FU!!

Uncle Dennis....

2011-04-04T19:57:00.000-04:00

"If love is a labor, I'll slave til the end...."

-Rise Against

So last week, we found out rather suddenly that my Uncle Dennis was put in the hospital. Hes currently dealing with some issues with blockage in his colon area and had to have surgery yesterday to have some tumors removed and may(or may not) be facing issues with colon cancer. Sounds fun right?

For the time being and from what my Aunt is telling us, its not life threatening and they are running tests to make sure he is ok. So we are not rallying together as a family yet to show our support. However, we have been checking on them and sending our love their way.

My Uncle is the first man I know who first held my son without flinching or feeling awkward. He's also the first man(besides myself) to make my kid smile. Uncle Dennis is the kind hearted, always ready for a laugh uncle who always there for you. Everyone loves Uncle Dennis, all the kids, the grandkids, nieces and nephews all have a big place in our hearts for him. Some of us aren't super close, he treats you like your best friend. Mami and I have been building a better relationship with him and my Aunt over the past few years

Uncle Dennis and my Aunt are the superheroes of the family. They look out for everyone and keep us all together. Some of us take them for granted while the rest of us appreciate the things they do for this family. Nobody's perfect but their big hearts are sometimes what keep alot of us together.

So naturally, the thought of anything happening to my Uncle is just sad. While I believe things will be ok this time, you can't help but wonder how sad it would be to lose a great family member. Plus for all the kindness he brings to everyone, that would just not be fair to take him away like that.

So today, we are thinking of Uncle Dennis and send him well wishes and big hearts from our hearts and hope to see him up and making googley faces to my son who already loves to see him!

I've got AIDS in my face....

2011-04-02T00:35:00.000-04:00

"Life is great, without it, you'd be dead..."
-Scowarr, Tanis the Shadow Years

AIDS? Not quite so much..... I have known for a couple years that I have health issues that would make me prone to my genetically linked line of diabetes long running on both sides of my family. My last doctor visit two years ago told me I had high cholestrol and was in a high pre diabetes range. Because of my high stress job at the time and the excessive over eating I was doing working as a buffet manager, we knew understood the risks I was putting myself at.

Since then, we have made strong changes. We cut beef out of our lives, except the occasional restaurant burger, but we don't buy it for our meals at home. Turkey has become an awesome, healthier alternative that we never expected and we love it. We began being more health conscious, incorporating more salads and veggies than before. I love veggies, Mami still does not.

The biggest was giving up caffeine. We were both big soda drinkers. We would buy 4 cases for Mami and two cases for me every two weeks, not including the soda I would drink while working. Giving it up was a big step, and our bodies thanked us. We drink soda but we buy it as luxury, a day off or in the frequency of a candy bar sort of thing.

We made changes, thats for sure. We aren't by any means perfect and we stray often in meals. At home, we make mostly good choices but we love our sweets and love to pig out from time to time. But for the most part we make pretty good choices in eating healthy, if not losing the weight we want.

I also have sleep apnea, which means if I don't use a machine, I snore loudly. If I snore loudly, then my near insomniac wife can't sleep and tries to smother me with pillows(or is plotting to). Needless to say, I snore with a machine on peacefully....

I'm also thinking ten or so years of heavy drinking and partying didn't help slow things until the past few years where my priorities became a different story....

Two weeks ago, I finally chose to go see the doctor for a check up and see where I stood in terms of diabetes situation. We are always trying to progress towards a good healthy situation but we needed to know where I stood on this one. Got a blood test....

and BAM...type 2 diabetes!

I honestly didn't know how to really take it and almost blogged about it last week but decided to wait. I wanted to know what it meant and what I was really looking at. They discussed medication on the phone but otherwise weren't stressing the issue....'oh come back in 2-3 weeks, no big deal..."

Mami was probably a little more bothered than I was and of course did her research. She was well verse when we visited the doc today....

He told us I am at a minimal point right. The range of diabetics being around 6-7 and I'm a 7.1, so just being right above the range. Its fixable, the results being I need a little more exercise and some more attention to my current diet.

This is my first brush with my own mortality, thats right I think I'm as badass as Superman most of the time. In my 31 years, outside of having hayfever, allergies and asthma, this is my first real medical condition. Its still minimal and I'm very grateful I have a chance to fix it but nonetheless the reality is still there.

I am getting somewhat older and unless I want to regret my past poor choices, I have to begin finally working on making my body a working situation.

I have the right support group, my wife and monkey. They keep me out trouble, and I hope I can do this without giving up all my favorites. However, for their sake, its not something you think about.......

so I don't have face AIDS, just something to fix, like a bad pipe leak or something right?

Fawky time!

2011-04-01T22:50:00.000-04:00

Back by ~~virtually no~~ popular demand, a Fawk You Friday, courtesy of Papi!

You can never keep a good Papi down and I have missed my blog a little so I'm hoping to engage it a little bit. I can't help but kick things off with my friend Boobies! who allows a little time to end our week with some rawrs and fawks so we can start fresh with a smile and work on a littel venting and rage for next week.

First things first:

Fawk You!

-Papi, for being a slacker, I have been on and off my blog the past few months. My bad, I love my blog but have been putting it off and I love and miss it sometimes.

-the lady who called to engage me in a twenty minute phone conversation about the standards of my employees and store, called me a teenager and questioned my ability to manage a store based on biased views that make no sense. You might be one of the many people who pay my bills, but I don't have to worship the ground you walk on. There are other customers who are just fine with how we do things

-the growing amount of people lately who feel the need to respond to a simple answer with snide, snarky speeches about their opinions on how things should be. A simple 'ok' or 'no problem' is sufficient.

-anyone else with a soapbox lately, we all have them but please don't abuse the privilege

-anyone who has referred to my marriage as 'our perfect life' in a bitter tone. We worked hard and are still working hard for what we have. Maybe if you did the same, you would not be in the shitty situation you are in now. Both life and love take work, invest yourself and quit bitching...

-my lame body for giving me 'the beetis' I was hoping to dodge that bullet.

Thats all I got for now, I'll think of some new clever ones for next week(maybe)

Have a great week and see you at the same fawking channel, same fawking place!

Fo shizzle.....

Blah fawky BLAH!

2011-03-19T00:27:00.000-04:00

Alright, this Papi has been MIA and it got so late, I almost didn't post this but you can't keep a good Papi down especially when theres some fawks to be had!

Courtesy of my buddy, Boobies! and her wonderful blogosphere, its a great place to share some fawks to the world and start the week fresh for new fawky fawk! You get the idea.....

Do your thing, post some fawks and the link up already, or I'll kick you in the fawkin face!

Here goes....

Faaaaaawwwwkkkkkk Yooooouuuuuuu!!!!

-work, while i appreciate the small raise after 8 months of servitude, I was a little disappointed it didn't come with a bonus check due to my 'rank' and '49% amount of time with the company'. Even though I expected this, its still lame when you've been happily(and occasionally mindlessly) working your ass off

-to the unnamed blogger out there who responded to the disaster in Japan as "thats what they get for Pearl Harbor". Nevermind the obvious statement I could make about the whole "Hiroshima thing" and Japan having possibly paid the price for that already. Its in poor taste and I guess I'm just happy I didn't hear you say something so shockingly ignorant in person.

-the world, why did you hurt the Japanese? Something about that just doesn't seem fair and it seems to be just getting worse. There isn't anything about the Japanese I don't like, please keep them around

-moocher kitties in our neighborhood, we feed you and the monkey demands loving already!

-anyone who truly believed anyone who calls himself "The Situation" was actually capable of saying anything funny

-The Legend of Zelda; you are an evil, addictive game and I've devoted many years and lost many hours to your neverending versions

-whoever is out there, trying to find ways to scam on the natural disaster issue in Japan. I read there are scammers already offering 'anti-radiation pills'. Really? People are dying by the thousands and you are already cashing in somehow? While people shouldn't be so gullible, its not fair and just plain evil to prey on people's fears like that.

There you have it, another fawkin moment in the land of Punk Rock Papi!

My brain is bleeding......

2011-03-05T20:00:00.002-05:00

:::::please insert mindless angry rant here::::::::

After watching The Soup, it was revealed to me that this stupid skank(her real name might be Nicole, but all I hear is drunk skank) is gracing the covers of Rolling Stone.

Oh Rolling Stone, how far you have fallen.....

I just picked up last months issue with Elton John on the cover and Deadmau5's name(his fucking NAME) on the cover. The article on Deadmau5 was awesomeballs, though it could have been bigger. And then they pull this stunt.....

Honestly, I think Rolling Stone is a bullshit music magazine. Once, long ago it was worth reading but its all crap that sells. Do you read it? I didn't think so either...

The cover has this skank riding a giant fucking rocket and I'm thinking to myself...."I doubt thats the first or last time does that...." and I think the same thing when I see the picture above and then I'm convinced shes probably doing it right now.

People are fucking gross....

And you, all of you are buying into this crap! Shame on you! This pudgy little hooker is selling books and making awful magazine covers and don't even get me started again on the brain bursting tv show. This is my constant reminder of easily led we are as a people. If its on tv, then it sells. Don't give that horrible trainwreck crap either, even actual fiery trainwrecks don't get this much attention. You people are obsessed and you're got issues. Pretty soon, we will be attending asshole therapy because we are all obsessed with assholes.

Don't buy into the bullshit, throw bullshit back....

And theres this crazy shit.....

First off, where do these assholes even get the money for these really well done signs? Aren't they violating copyright laws somewhere? and how the fuck is V from V for Vendetta involved in gay/soldier hating propaghanda?

I have always hated Westboro Baptist Church ever since the Matthew Shepard incident in Wyoming and so these assholes justify my distaste for all things religious. This bullshit with the protesting funerals is a horrible catch 22. I don't care how you put it, I don't care if its soldiers, gays and just guys names Joe, they are protected by laws just like anyone else. What makes our country tolerable is the right to do these things and express ourselves freely. Obviously, these people are smart enough to be able to exploit this freedom and run as far as they can with it. Its just a fucking shame they are blinded by their mad ignorance of how things really are in the world that they don't use their own influence in the world. All they are spreading is blind hate, unjustified judgment. One day, their church and all their people in it will burn to the ground cause someone will express themselves freely.....

What they make up for in ignorance, they lack in human decency. Even if it was a guy named Joe, I'd be just as pissed off about this. Being a human being and letting the dead be put to rest is a right we all deserve anywhere in this country, who the fuck are you to change that? I would love to come and protest their funerals, but I'm better than that. I have respect for those around me....

Don't give them the attention they want, thats how this shit got out of hand in the first place. They are just another gimmick and the more you feed into it, the bigger they get

This is the real problem......

Fucking Zombie Ants!! Apparently theres a fungi in the jungle and forests that attach themselves to the ants and control until they basically kill themselves so the fungi can then GROW from their heads.

Fucking evil man! and thats what you get for fucking with evolution, fight it all you want, but its still there. This is how the Zombie Apocalypse starts!! Its starts with some creepy spores killing bugs, then the spores move on to animals and then your drinking water and then your FACE!

Fuck you, I'm stocking up on guns and armored cars and extra beer and when it happens, I'm stealing your boats and heading to the first dead zombie celebrities secluded island home that I can find. You can have the zombies.....

::::::end mindless Papi like rant::::::::

Oh, I'm so pretty.....

2011-03-05T00:16:00.001-05:00

Thats right mothatruckas! Punk Rock Papi has gotten all gussied up like some cheap french whore and got a new blog design. Thanks to Amber from Zany Dezines who put it together for me. She pretty much was thoughtful to my requests for what I might be looking for and pretty much blew the doors open for what I needed.

So drop some love to the new design, tell me how sexy I look now and then forget to call me after we spend the night together. And most of all, stop by Amber's site and get your blog revamped with the right touch. Shes got you covered and invests some good time into it and I couldn't be happier.

Thanks Amber!

Also, Papi's blog has finally gotten over 3000 views. Its like winning gold in the special olympics at my semi brain functioning capability but clearly SOMEONE has been reading. So whoever you are, thanks for stopping by!

Oh and I know my top buttons don't work, its a work in progress so don't hate....

Butt fawking!

2011-03-04T23:44:00.000-05:00

Thats right you dirty fawkers, Papi has arrived with his bag full of fawks! I know you can't get enough of my rants. Better late than never I say!!!!!

I feel like this week has been jam packed full of stupidity of the stupidest kind(just saying....) and without a doubt, its time to fawk!!

Courtesy of my good friend, Boobies!, its always great to be a part of her weekly fawkfest. So post your fawks and your rawrs and link up. You'll feel much better I promise.....

Faaaaaawwwkkkkkkk Yyyyyyooooouuuuuuuu!!!!!!!

-a man at work called "The Easy Button". You have been spent the past week in the store bringing a nasty dark cloud around the people I work with and then leaving me to clean up the mess. I have never had my week wrapped in the amount of salads my team produces and no time to see the result of our invested time into improving our problems

-You America, shame on you! Stop giving idiots attention they don't deserve

-Famous people, shame on you! You are too co-dependent on your public spotlight, so much you will let your sanity go leaps and bounds past anything we can ever understand. For what? just five more minutes.....

-Charlie Sheen, fawk you and your 'Tiget Blood'. You're a hot mess of stupid.

-the first of month, you take my money in large doses so you just suck

-my first credit card, you are too tempting. Then I feel bad when I use you...

-My beautiful Booshie, for never knowing how truly beautiful you are(gag, puke, gross)

-My amazing boy, your pictures look great and make me reflect too much on how little you used to be....jerk!

-people who don't think the 'robot' isn't the coolest dance ever....

Holy shit, its Wednesday!

2011-03-02T20:28:00.000-05:00

"You are not a beautiful and unique snowflake, you are the same decaying, organic matter as everything else."
-Tyler Durden

I wanted to drop a blog entry, its been too long! For a couple weeks, Mami's computer was out so I let her conduct her business as she needed until I replaced her power cord. It mostly gave me an excuse to play video games anyways.

After the monkey finally recovered from his long running illness, it seems we have been making up for alot of lost sleep and it has been awesome. I have become addicted to my new playstation 3, so my computer has become a low priority. But I do enjoying babbling randomly so of course, I always make sure to come back. Theres always something on my mind and I love leaving my own brain droppings on here from time to time.

With a manager out for 6 weeks, my store manager and I have taken on the work load of three managers. We have the help from other stores and our District Manager but its pretty much filling in a spot so me or the boss can have days off. We are the heart of the store and as much as we appreciate the help of others, we have to keep the blood flowing.

Is it exhausting? Not really.....I enjoy what I do as always and feel it is continuing to add to my learning experiences. I hope it puts me in a better spot to move on to bigger and better things. Reviews are coming any day now and its my chance to get myself ranked to earn bonus potential and though I don't expect much from getting a bonus, anything bonus like always helps and I feel like I'm earning my cheese on my whopper so to say. The big boss is putting the pinch on us so I only hope to live up to my end and be able to reap the benefits....

And last but not least.....

This guy.......

Sometimes I am just shocked just about how stupid people are in this world. What makes them squeal and what makes them practically kill themselves to get to it? I'm sure you have all heard by now how he lost something like 80,000 twitter followers for cutting his hair....thats right, his fucking hair!!!!

Stupid stupid stupid stupid....

And this is the last time I'm going to bitch about this but Charlie Sheen needs to go back to his pile of cocaine and hooker vomit. I get it, hes a nut and completely out of his mind. Does this really surprise you when he went to rehab or that he was even completely nuts? I'm reading it everywhere and people are just plain obsessed with the idea. The man has been doing a tv show for several years where his character(named Charlie) glorifies being coked up and drunk all the time. Where is the mystery in this?

Dumb dumb dumb dumb......

It just enrages me sometimes(and its probably worse now that I have cable again) that we as a public invest so much energy into glorifying the idiots of the world. Putting mundane ideas and stupid concepts as our highest priorities in the world. Theres a huge world out there and there are things beyond the senses to amaze us and intensify our human experience and this is how we limit ourselves. We are giving these people the attention they want because they are so used to you caring about what they think or do that they are willing to make desperate attempts for even just a few minutes.

I get it, I am probably catering to the masses by writing this rant but some things have to be said before I move on.

Oh and I still hate Jersey Shore......its where stupid goes to die, stop watching that show!

The Papi has spoken......

The perfect space.....

2011-02-22T19:15:00.000-05:00

Mami and I are always talking about one day having a perfect space, our little space. Where children can't run amok, where we can both work on our blogs and other things once the monkey(and future monkeys) are asleep or away.

An office.....

Most people have man caves, lady crevices or whatever you want to go hide in. I'm not looking to hide away from my family, I just want an awesome space to share with my wife. Where we can hang whatever we want, listen and watch what we want and work on our projects in a quiet area at home. It is a personal goal when we finally buy a house to have this space.

With an office, you have to have the right office furniture. CSN has provided alot of great items for our home and they have no exceptions to in their office department. Lots of great things to chose from.

When I think of one day having a great space, the quiet and tranquil of the perfect office for myself and Mami, I am giddy as a small child. We have already listed plenty of items we would like to see in our home when we get the chance.

What about you? Whats your perfect space?

Monday's Music Move Me-Valentine's Edition!

2011-02-14T09:26:00.000-05:00

"We're not at the end but oh, we've already won. Noone is as lucky as us...."
                                              -Paramore

               Happy Valentine's Day! Monday's Music is all lovey dovey themed this month and it just so happens that today is Monday and the big Vday!

I had thought to do a Valentine's post for Mami and all the many reasons I love her. But that is something I do almost all the time, I can't think of any of my posts that aren't ever expressing my love for my wife. You all know where I come from and of course, so do we.

I like Valentine's because it allows you to be extra gross and silly about someone you love. But its also a lame holiday, not just because its overpriced Hallmark holiday as many are quick to say(and I agree!) because I think noone needs one day out of the year to let someone know they are loved.

I love my wife 365 days a year and I love her more as every day passes. Whenever I don't think I could love her more, another day passes.

I love my son 367 days of the year, thats right.... I said it!

Happy Valentine's Day out there, I hope you are all enjoying the best of each other and your loved ones. Always remember, you don't need one day to express how much you love someone, I love to love and I'm happy to do it every day.

Now on to the music...Mami and I have such a huge love of music and we often express ourselves through our music, so it shouldn't be a surprise that we have songs that often remind us of one another and songs we enjoy together that remind us of...well, us!

I am going to rehash an old favorite, I posted it a few months back for the monkey and it has since become a family favorite. Its a sweet song that reminds me of my son and its a sweet video someone on Youtube made.


                   International You Day(Tony Sly acoustic) by No Use For A Name
                   "I swear I'm giving up my insides to the one, that I adore. I know this world is big enough for you and I, but I'll give you more....."

The next is a song that always reminds me of Mami and the life we spend together. When this album came out, "The Only Exception" was the song that reminds her of me and this song off the same album always reminds me of her. We do love our Paramore.....


           'Where the Lines Overlap' by Paramore
       "Now I've got a feeling if I sang this loud enough, you would sing it back to me...."

Happy Valentine's Day!

Has it been one year already?

2011-02-13T16:00:00.002-05:00

                         "Thank you, Mom and Dad. Thank you, Lazy Copywriters. Thank you, Reader for buying this book. I apologize for not even trying to aim at Point B, or even starting from Point A. Comedy and terror and autobiography and comics and literature-theyre all the same thing....to me...."
                                               -Patton Oswalt

Well?!?!?!? I'm waiting, wheres my fucking cookie?

A year has come and gone and not only is it my birthday, its my first blogoversary! I was just reading my first blog post and noticing the mindless jabber it was and realizing how far we have come and my mindless jabbering is never ending. However, it has been a fun and amazing year. I have met a few awesome bloggers, engaged in some mindless ranting and even had a giveaway!

Small accomplishments for one who has little to no time to always to commit to blogging but I have enjoyed it nonetheless. I think theres maybe three people who actually read this but thank you to all of you who are. You all rock equally in my world because you took the time to stop by.

I don't see this blog ever going away, even though I have contemplated it once or twice. I love having my rant space and I love doing the music thing on Mondays.

Thanks again and enjoy a few of Papi's greatest hits.......
http://punkrockpapi.blogspot.com/2010/02/intro-to-certain-madness.html <~~~~Papi's first post!!

http://punkrockpapi.blogspot.com/2010/02/valentines-day-and-corporate-whorism.html <~~~~Don't be a cheap fatass

http://punkrockpapi.blogspot.com/2010/02/dance-like-monkey-and-laugh-laugh-laugh.html <~~~~will beat you for sex money

http://punkrockpapi.blogspot.com/2010/04/my-rockers-are-aging.html <~~~~Papi's aging rockers

http://punkrockpapi.blogspot.com/2010/04/happy-zombie-jesus-day.html <~~~Zombie Jesus loves you!

http://punkrockpapi.blogspot.com/2010/05/ur-doing-it-wrong.html <~~~Papi hates crazy(and stupid) people

http://punkrockpapi.blogspot.com/2010/10/who-doesnt-love-mix-tape.html <~~~Papi's mix tapes

http://punkrockpapi.blogspot.com/2010/11/i-love-you-so-much-its-retarded.html <~~~Papi loves Mami

Alright, thats enough, now get outta here you crazy kids! Do YOU have a favorite Papi filled moment?

Thanks for an awesome first year....

Holy old man balls!!!!

2011-02-13T08:00:00.001-05:00

Theres no better way to say it, I'm another year older, another year my balls sag closer to the ground. The less hair I have on my head, the closer to my dreams of senility will soon be met and I will take it out on all of YOU!!!!!

Hoorah!

I'm not one for birthday speeches so I will just share my favorite music video that gets posted every year in honor of the glory that is me. Remember, your birthday is YOUR day, enjoy it as your own and be the biggest asshole you can. You usually aren't allowed this privilege any other day of the year so fucking soak it up!

and as an added bonus:

See you next year! Bring beer.....

Crawling out my cave once more....

2011-02-12T08:00:00.001-05:00

"I wanna make you know I can do anything, but I don't ever show you how I really am...."

-The Bouncing Souls

"I have to either commit to losing weight or just become fascinated with whats happening to me. Like Jeff Goldblum in 'The Fly'..."

-Patton Oswalt

I've been holding out the past couple weeks. Have really felt this overwhelming desire to write blogs but just haven't been staying up to par lately. After finding out my Uncle's inevitable passing, whenever I sit down to write a blog, I am nothing but a blank stare. Nevermind that I have a million thoughts a minute going through my head at work about things to blog about, just a blank stare once I'm sitting down. So I sort of gave up trying, became ~~horribly obsessed~~ enthralled with the Wii and the Zelda game I got at Gamefly. It was easier to stab and kill things then vomit the truth out of my brain. I fuckin' love that game too! Stupid mindless infatuations with things that go back to my childhood....

We finally said goodbye to my Uncle last week. It was good to know a family sticks close in times of need even though we are seperated usually by the hubub of our everyday lives. We weren't asked to be there, we weren't obligated to be there, we were just there. It seemed to strengthen the closeness we have with our family just letting them know we were there. And that kid of ours, well...he just knows how to brighten up even the darkest day so go figure....

Despite the craziness of other ignorant family members, we all said our goodbyes to my Uncle and began working on the rest of our lives. However, leave it to Mami to turn up the sexy juice by laying into of those ignorant assholes who decided he wanted to carry on and on about his woes on the world. Rawr!

It feels like we have been sucked into some crazy vortex lately. Theres always something going on, things to do. The spice of life I suppose, we are always on the go.

However, we were able to reap the benefits of our taxes and get alot of things we needed and/or wanted for ourselves. Mami and I love to torture ourselves while we harass each other to get new things(but don't) and always make sure the monkey goes without. We are cheesy, gross and just plain sappy like that. But we caved a little and got things for the house, things for us and of course, we spiced up the monkey's room finally like we always wanted. If that kid is ever ungrateful for how much we love to see him happy, I'm selling him to a pack of wolves.

Work is a neverending cesspool of awesome. I am continuing to progress and become more comfortable with what I am actually doing. I am doubting myself less and even able to counter the boss with answers to things hes trying to tell me to take care of. "Did you do X?" "Did that yesterday!" "Make sure to tell so and so to do such and such..." "Had that conversation this morning..." It goes on and on. The team I am working with is finding a comfort level with me and feeling they can talk to me like a co worker and not Genghis the Day Manager. It means I have at least managed to earn some measure of respect amongst my team which means I am at least doing my job as a manager and leader(or so I hope!). Now if I could get that qualifying bonus and slight increase in my salary.....

As this week comes to an end, we are faced with the greatest day EVER!!!! My 31st Birthday! This means I am continuing my ascension into becoming old as fuck. It bothered me last year when I combined my birthday with my new use of a CPAP machine. Now its just another day that I will be working, of course its further proof of my continuing awesome and I get to be the most selfish prick I want to be for one day only...so do as I fucking say!!!

I accept all cash donations and free booze, no hookers please!

If you have never seen the new Tron, fucking do it! Fucking most epic movie ever, my new favorite. Waited two months for that shit. Have to show the love to Daft Punk who cameo'd the movie and kept the music rolling despite the ~~excessive~~ necessary violence during the movie scene. And seeing Jeff Bridges all old skool again, fucking technology!

The rest of my weekend will be spent slinging candy and flowers and fish and cake to all you love starved crazy people who find solace and romance in 30 dollar roses. "Look at me, I overspent all my money cause I LOVE YOU!"

This will be followed by soaking my tissues in alcohol and trying to become the next DJ Hero.....oh yeah, I got a PS3 and I'm that fucking dork. Deadmau5 is going to get his ass kicked....score!

Til we meet again bitches.....

Makin fawky!!

2011-02-11T19:15:00.000-05:00

"I wasn't born with enough middle fingers..."

-Marilyn Manson

Hey you dirty fawkers, you just can't keep a good Papi down when theres some serious hardcore fawking to be done! Mwhahahahahaha!

Yeah, its been awhile, I've sort of been in hiding the past couple weeks. As always, I'm in no shortage of fawks to share with the world. I have plenty for you and am always happy to be apart of Boobies! awesome Friday gig.

Drop a few fawks of your own and link up, you know you wanna!

I'm not gonna lie, its been more ups than downs but I have a few fawks to offer nonetheless so here you go!

Fawk You!

-family sickness! My son has been a gross, mean boogery hacking mess. Hes finally got doctor drugs and is on the mend but damn its been rough. A lack of sleep, Mami is stressed and our schedules are thrown off. I just want spring to be here so the family can stop getting sick. However, I'm just glad Mami and I weren't horribly infected this time despite the 298379837 times he coughed in our faces.

-family sadness, it was rough last week seeing so many close family members so sad at my Uncle's passing away. It affected many of us but at least brought us so close.

-an extra fawk you to the family members who were more concerned with themselves and what nasty things they had to say or just trying to cash in on someone's death. I hope you fawking choke already....

-tax money, you were here as quickly as you came. Thanks for the cool shit but all I could say to my card was 'burst into flames, burst into flames!!'

-the retail industry, for convincing me never to buy Mami roses for Valentine's Day since the price doubles just because. Mami's response "I don't care, I don't like roses anyways..." WIN!

-to another fawkin' year gone by, this Papi is 31 and tired. It was a great year but this beauty just won't last forever, no matter how much beer I drink!

Happy Friday you fawks! Don't forget to do lots of fawkin on Monday and if you don't wish me a Happy Birthday on Sunday, welllll FAWWWWWKKKK YOOOOOUUU!!!!!

Monday's Music Moves Me!

2011-01-31T04:33:00.000-05:00

Hooray, its freakin' Monday!!!!!!!! No matter our place in the world or where sadness take us, music is a place that always soothes the soul. Today will be no exception as well.

You know the drill, grab some youtube vids, post them on your blog and sign the linky with my friend Xmas Dolly!. Check out everyone else's choices and don't forget to leave comments and follow. I still meet one or two new followers when I sign on and meet some cool like minded music lovers and even if folks aren't fans, they sure do leave alot of love.

After reading Xmasdolly's rules on profanity, I will point out that while I don't always post music with foul language or nudity, you won't always get that. I won't say anything I post is "XXX" as it suggests something more extreme. However, my music is simply what it is, music. It will not always be clean so please play in your home or office at your own risk. Once you click the play button, its luck of the draw depending on the song.

Take a chance, you might hear something good!

This week's theme is favorite bands! Oh man do I have alot of favorites, I'll just post a few vids from favorites I can listen to any given day of the week!!!

NOFX- Thank God It's Monday

I figured this is an appropriate song for the Monday jams. I love just about every song this band puts out. Been listening since I discovered my love of punk rock music at 19. Nothing ever gets old and they rock it old skool any day.

Social Distortion-Story of My Life

Loved this band since I was 17. They have followed my every walk of life since high school. They're a band with a great sound and are lyrical geniuses. They are band thats older than me and are still rocking their way through life.

The Donnas- You Wanna Get Me High

I have loved these girls forever, they rock so hard and are so awesome to their fans. I have many signed things by them and taken many pictures with them and of them. I have shared the stage with them and will never stop rocking my face to them. This song in particular was dedicated to me and another fan at Lollapalooza in Denver back around 2005.

Deadmau5-FML(live at Global Dance Fest 2010)

We can't forget the guy I love to listen to so much on here! I listen to him day in and day out. Theres never a bad time to listen to Deadmau5, even my son shakes his booty when there's a little Mau5 playing. This clip is from a festival in Denver, I used to love going and they get such big names now. This is where I discovered him and my favorite track by him.

Happy Monday!

Can't sleep, clowns will eat me....

2011-01-31T03:46:00.000-05:00

Alright, I've been putting off blogging for long enough, especially about the ongoings of the past week. Theres been so much sadness and worry for the well being of our families over the past week that posting blogs has just something I couldn't find myself doing at the time. This is the first time I've picked up my computer in a couple days simply because I got tired of just staring at it blankly when I was actually wanting to get something done.

Mami has been a trooper and keeping the twitter people and blogworld in the know about our families. I have been updating frequently only via my FB.

The week started with anger and frustration with a family member who acted way out of line and turned into Mami's niece in the hospital for a few days after she had her tonsils taken out and had complications. She is out and ok at this point and on the way to recovery finally from what I hear.

Monday night, my aunt posted that my Uncle, the oldest of all the siblings, was in the hospital. I knew he had been having some complications with diabetes and other health issues for quite some time now. I saw him at Christmas and he looked very skinny and sick. It seemed he had liver cancer and was simply not doing well. While talking to aunts, it turned out by Thursday that he was simply not going to make it.

Instead of visiting Friday, like we had planned, we went Thursday. Where he was coherent the morning before, he was already in a deep decline and gradually getting worse. We picked up my sister and went down as a family to visit. While we didn't know my uncle well, he was still family and it was important to be there for my Mimi and my other aunts as well as his family and show our support. My uncle made a lot of bad decisions in life and even though I had only really met him a few times in my life, I heard alot about him and knew he walked a hard road that he imposed on himself.

In the end, it was great to see everyone gather as a family and be there to support one another. We are all busy in our lifetime and it almost seems as if time itself stops as we all feel a certain clarity when someone close passes away. Ever since my Dad died when I was 17, death has never been easy for me to deal with. Whenever it happens to someone I know or worse, someone close to me, my mind goes to completely different places. I either hate seeing someone lost or hate seeing so many people upset and hate that I cannot do anything because its just something you can't fix.

We spent the day with family after my Uncle finally passed at 4pm Saturday. To add to the sadness, my Uncle D's mother passed away the same day. Even worse, it was on his birthday. Sometimes when it rains, it pours.

My sadness over all this comes from a grieving for my family and to wish them happiness. I only want to be the support they need right now. It makes me feel weird when people have been offering me words of comfort for 'my loss'. I only feel a loss for the sadness of my family, I just wasn't close enough to my uncle to feel a loss. I appreciate the kindness that everyone has to offer, but it just makes me feel weird. I wish it was easy to transfer those well wishes to my family who is hurting right now.

Of course, with the sadness of loss comes the dark side of family as well. Theres been alot of gossip and my Uncle's children trying to claim a piece of anything he has before he has even died!! Its absolutely shocking anyone would behave so disrespectfully and not let the past go. I feel in death, a person is relieved of their troubles for as they can no longer create trouble, they also cannot fix their troubles. I feel once someone has passed, we are no longer allowed to express bitterness and hatred for their mistakes in life. I am hoping by this Saturday when we all say goodbye, that everyone will make their peace and move on.

It 3:30am and I have to work at 5am. I don't know if I got too much sleep on Sunday when I took an extra nap, maybe it was the caffeine from all the soda I drank or maybe I simply I had too much on my mind.

Anyhow, RIP to my Uncle and my Great Aunt. They impacted many lives and it is very moving to the heart to be around such a supportive family for those that need it most.

And the horse you rode in on......

2011-01-25T08:00:00.001-05:00

                                "To a world that never appreciated shit, you can suck my dick and fucking like it...."
                                                   -KoRn

                                "99% of life is what you make of it, so if your life sucks then YOU suck!"
                                                   -Suicidal Tendencies

Thats right, Papi is feeling a little bitter and HIGHLY annoyed. This post was written a few days ago cause I wanted some things to sort of cool down befor firing it up again. However even though I find myself aggravated as fuck with one person in particular, all week my mind has been on the general idea.

Mami knows its a definite hot button for me to see people take the life around them for granted. I see so many people out there manipulating, lying and cheating their way through life. Its obnoxious and frustrating to know I have to get up each and every day to earn my place in the world while so many around me are having it handed to them and they don't even accept it with any measure of gratitude. It shocks me that anyone can go through life just waiting for things to happen to them and if it doesn't go their way, well fuck anyone who tried to make it better....

Rawr!

Yeah, I know, I could be as empty shelled as most people and do the same exact thing. But I won't, my life has to have more meaning than always trying to get something for nothing and giving nothing in return.

Friends, family, roomates, people I've never met....this is something that never discriminates who wants to live that way.

Dealt with a situation with a family member today that only further fueled this thought. They have had pretty much everything handed to them. They admit to lying and manipulating their way through life and being proud of it. As soon as they are called out on it and things don't go their way, suddenly threats to us and our home are thrown out left and right. It makes no fucking sense to me. Things don't go your way so you just flip out. It pretty much has led to our phones being blocked from them as well as any other forms on contact since they chose to do things the way they wanted.

Doesn't make sense, I hate seeing people thrive on nothing while anyone who works their hardest has to continue to claw and fight their way. Working for it always has its long term rewards while having it given just makes you unappreciative and generally unhappy.

Grrr....thats about all I have to say....

Monday's Music Moves Me!

2011-01-24T08:00:00.001-05:00

Another Monday is upon us and with it comes the awesome flow of some tasty music!! I am never in short supply of tasty music that I like to share so you will never have to fret of course!!

My friend Xmas Dolly! is the host with her crew of friends with this fun excitement of music and tunes. Theres alot of great music and even greater people each week, so raid your Youtube stash, find your favorites according to the week's theme and post them in your blog. Don't forget to check anyone else's music and sign the linky!

For those of you that have commented recently, I am sorry for not getting back to you. I read them always in my phone but have been sort of slack while I was ill the past couple weeks. Thanks for the love and I am now back i action, woohooo!!

Now to the good stuff!

This week's theme is freebies so I'm just dropping a few of the favorites I've had playing this past week. Enjoy!

Daft Punk-One More Time

I have no idea why but this song has been playing so randomly the past few weeks. I believe I have heard it at work on occasion, it seems to be an ongoing flavor in my Ipod and I even think I heard it playing out of neighbor's house(gasp! a truly rare thing). It always reminds me of this ridiculous animated video they did as well. Good song too! "The Music's got me feeling so free...."

Jimmy Eat World- Always Be

Another random song that wants to play itself. I used to never be into Jimmy but they slowly won me over, especially after I got with Mami and she was into them too. A good song with a good mood attached to it.....

Reel Big Fish- Kiss Me Deadly

I know this is a Lita Ford cover, but I absolutely enjoy this cover. Its a favorite for many years and I've honestly had it in my head all day long. When that happens I just get weird looks at work cause I'm whistling it...hah!

KoRn- Faget

"To a world that never appreciated shit, you can suck my dick and fucking like it!"

This is a nice angry song, been dealing with irritations amongst family and that quote sort of has been in my head related to this particular issue. Also, this is an old song from my high school youth. We loved it when we first heard it. Thought it was great that it was about him getting made fun of in school, something about wearing makeup or nail polish or some such. Fun fact; my Dad who let me listen to anything got so mad when he heard KoRn, I was banned from listening to them but got to go see Marilyn Manson when ALL the parents hated him hahaha

Happy Monday!

Papi's Moments in Irony.....

2011-01-23T23:22:00.001-05:00

Okay, I want to play a game....visit the above clip and despite the overwhelming urge to listen to the whole clip, skip to 3:40. This is the only clip of this I could find so thats why we have to play this way......you can watch the whole clip after if you like. For now, do as I say!!!

Then watch this clip...is there something Patton knows that I just don't? I have seen this preview a half a million times and every time I see this part, I giggle a little. Don't get me wrong, I'm really not trying to poke fun at fat people but I am reminded of Patton everytime I hear it. We watch this show and its crazy to see how much weight these people lose. This man is named RickyWayne....thats right, thats his whole name! This poor man just can't catch a break. His episode is tomorrow so no more random giggling for me!
I sort of wonder if the producers of this show put this in the preview knowing full well what they were doing....naughty!

Sometimes its the little things that make life fun, irony can be funny sometimes, even if its unintended....

Dinner and beer with Papi!

2011-01-19T08:00:00.000-05:00

Oh me, oh my! I have missed doing this. Mami and I were on a strict budget over the past couple months with moving and holidays. We haven't been doing any new recipes, just beer drinking for me hahahaha! Now that things are back to normal, I have a whole collection of recipes to go through and try out and hope you enjoy too!

I did Greek Meatloaves with this one as I have a friend tell me about it and I had a recipe I found in Taste Of Home magazine. It tasted great but I could have done half the recipe and it would have been fine for Mami and I. I also may have forgone the oats and milk for crackers in the idea of flavor. Below are the recipe and the photos, so enjoy and let me know what you think or anything different you may have tried with it!!

Greek Meatloaves:

2 eggs beaten

1/2 cup ketchup

1/4 cup 2% milk

1 large red onion

3/4 cup quick cooking oats

1/3 cup oil packed sundried tomatoes, patted dry and finely chopped

1/3 cup pitted greek olives, chopped

2 garlic cloves, minced

1 tsp salt

1 tsp pepper

2lbs lean ground beef(we prefer ground turkey)

1/cup crumbled feta cheese

Mix in a large bowl, pat into to two greased 8inch by 4 inch pans

Bake uncovered, at 350 degrees for 50-60 mins or until no pink remains and a meat thermometer reads 160 degrees. Let stand for five minutes

Sprinkle feta after transferring to plate(I added feta to the raw meat and then sprinkled on top)

Raided the produce section and olive bar at Fresh Market(my joyous job!). Just sort of grabbed an assortment of olives(plus a feta stuff for Papi's enjoyment)

Since I was suffering last week from deadly stomach plague, no beer was hurt in the making of this food. Just Vitamin Water...yum!

Mash Mash Mash it all together!!!

Dedication to Nom is squishy meat fingers!

Before!!

After!! I strongly recommend draining any excess grease halfway through baking.

And Enjoy! Nom Nom Nommmmmm!

Plotting and scheming....

2011-01-18T08:00:00.002-05:00

So I did my first giveaway a couple weeks ago and it left me wondering?

To giveaway or not to giveaway?

Mami has been blogging for over a year and reviewing products/doing giveaways for almost the same amount of time. I've been in the habit of random blogging. We have enjoyed the review opportunities she has been afforded but never really contemplated the idea of both of us taking on the same projects.

I think it would be great to take on opportunities and market my blog to possible companies, cooking ideas, csn stores...who knows at this point? It seems like theres alot to be reviewed out there.

Mami and I are a rare group of couple bloggers. We enjoy what we do and we share everything.

My question to you, the readers is....is it fair for the two of us in the same household to pursue these opportunities? Is it greedy or possibly unfair? Or would you do it if the opportunity presented itself?

I'm not one to take advantage of generous ideas but at one point when we lost entries in a contest for a printer for both of us entering, is this fair?

If so, is it also fair to enter contests seperately? There doesn't seem to be too much of a fine line, so I figure it doesn't hurt to ask.

I ask, reader and most likely fellow blogger....does it seem fair for both Mami and myself to review and giveaway products? If so, what is your best recommendation for getting started?

Thanks, your friendly neighborhood Papi!

Monday Music Moves Me! Old skool edition!

2011-01-17T08:00:00.001-05:00

Ahoy! It Monday and its time to rock out with your.....stuff in some order or something.

Check out Xmas Dolly! and her crew of awesome people. Grab a Youtube vid for this week's theme, jam out and sign on the linky so we can all hear your latest and greatest and you can hear theirs as well.

Always a fun week and I receive some pretty rad comments so it makes my day. I get the most activity on this blog on Mondays so double the awesome!

This week's theme is; keeping it old skool, songs from your youth! I'm pretty much old as fuck according to my wife so crank up your 8 tracks and that thing you wind up and play records with.....

ButtTrumpet- "I'm Ugly and I Don't Know Why"

This is probably the first hardcore band I heard that wasn't heavy metal when I was 14. I found out about it from a friend who heard it on local independent radio(when such awesome existed) and she even had a band that covered some of the songs. We were 14 and we laughed our asses off to their whole album

L7- "Pretend We're Dead"

One of my forever favorites since I was 16. A girlfriend who introduced to the love of female fronted rock bands let me borrow 'Bricks Are Heavy' before a show when they opened up for Marilyn Manson. Listened to the album and saw the show, hooked for life! Followed them for many years and even met them in Phoenix when I was 18!

Sponge- "Molly"

Picked this up when I was 17. I don't listen to them as much but played the hell out of this cd for a few years. Always reminds me of 'back in the day'

Lords Of Acid- "Voodoo U"

I picked this up from my older friends when I was 16. Loved(and still love) the cool devil chick art. I was hooked for years on them. Saw them play live when I was 17 and it was such a very badass show. I believe I got many people converted to them for a short time cause I practically crammed it down their throats hahahaha!

I'm going to stop here cause I listened to so much music then as I do now and could do this for days. For your sake, I will stop here. Happy Monday!

Papi's Year In Review 2010

2011-01-16T08:00:00.001-05:00

A few of my favorite things I enjoyed over the past year, just for you!!!!

Our first family vacation and discovering our love affair with NC!

Leaving this rag tag group of people I still call my friends after two and a half years to leave the shitty company we all worked for to pursue something bigger and better.....

Joining on with a company I fucking love! Obviously I'm having fun with it and the opportunities are endless right now.....

Reconnecting with family and getting to know my newest niece and watching my son play with his cousins has been just awesome.....

Causing mischief with my boy and watching him grow and spending time with him and his Mami has always topped my days!

One year married and two years together with the most amazing lady who I am stupid retarded for(if you couldn't tell) and its obvious we need to make more pictures together. Maybe next year?

While not my favorite time of the year, we will always remember the little man who made a difference in our lives. My heart will always be with his mother, Sandi who lost a piece of her heart this year. RIP Riley, your full potential was yet to be seen but you always remind us to be the best of ourselves always and especially as a family.

Papi's Year in Review: Monkey Edition

2011-01-15T08:00:00.001-05:00

I wanted to do my New Year post mixed with photos but damned if this family didn't take over a million photos last year...so I dug through alot of old photos, mostly from my postings on Facebook and chose alot of my favorite moments of the past year. Seeing as our son, my whacky little man is a neverending focus for our photographic ventures, he ends up with a Year in Review just for him....

These are some of my favorite moments captured of my favorite little man, enjoy!!!

This is how we begun our year, playing Rawrface! It has evolved into hide and go RAWR!

Keeping it old skool while discovering mischief....

Nothing gets in my way! This includes you Sperm Donor!

Rockin pretty faces with his Mami....

Painting with Daddy, a favorite family hobby!

Road Trips with Papi!

Berry Pickin' with Papi!

Sharing his fun tub time with his newest cousin!

Monkey's cake slave for the 1st birthday!

Hanging with Daddy at the new job....

Save me from the man in Red!
"You guys just love me more every year!"-Santa

Rockin into the New Year with my little man......

Say Fawwwwkkkk??!?!?!?!?

2011-01-14T18:33:00.000-05:00

In honor of my hero, Boobies! return to the bloggy world, I couldn't help but toss a few fawks out into the world. We are never in short supply of fawks in this lifetime so here are few for you!

Fawk You.....stomach flu, you have thrown my body into total chaos. For four days, I couldn't figure out if I had to poop or barf so you decided by letting me do neither and just made me feel like crap. Double Fawk You as well, now that I'm feeling better and decided to enjoy my joyous Cranberry Chocolate coffee, I have apparently jumped the gun since I have been burping rotten eggs all day since....TMI? Yeah probably!

Fawk You.....stupid zodiac people. Its the thing of the day, its based on article that has no validity and was written four years ago. Why freak out now? Its ok, I'm still an Aquarius and the rest of you are still assholes who are easily led around by halfassed theories...

Fawk You.....snow in the South! Oh Em Gee, despite my hatred of that phrase, it is the only way to describe the madness you bring to these people. I love the snow but it has forever been ruined by southerners who act like its the frickin' Apocalypse. Being from out west, trust me it could be worse and it really IS possible to drive on thin patches of ice AFTER dark!

Fawk You.....retail industry for making people work when they are clearly deathly afraid of the white stuff on the ground. Also for making the employees insane with rage because snow on the ground makes them all think we work til the sun goes down cause 'thats when its the worst'

Fawk You.....monkeyboy! You are still growing and causing your mother's uterus to have conflicting rages in her body....

Fawk You....stupid new neighbors above us, does everything weigh a million tons up there so you just HAVE to drop it every minutes? especially when the monkey is an hour into his nap

Fawk You...monkeyboy(again)...we are adapting to you new sleep schedule but its still not fun to wake up at 8am...just saying....

Fawk You......Boobies! Don't ever leave us again, you were missed. Speedy recovery my friend and we will do the surgery ourselves next time(google bitch!) and you can recover here at our humble abode....

That its fawkers, see you around!

Its never too late.....

2011-01-14T15:37:00.000-05:00

                                "So now you have to trade, your past away, and find a new day.
                                  So tell me, is change a friend or enemy?"
                                                   -The Offspring

To write a New Years post! I mean, as long its still January right? Its a little overdue sure but always gotta have the right words to say and I feel strongly about that at the moment. Even though the holidays had ended and much of the chaos was over, Mami and I seemed to be catching up on lost sleep, spending long overdue time with nieces, snow storms and fighting off a nasty stomach bug the past week. After a couple days of extra sleep, cleaning house, making dinner and much needed family romping time...I am ready to take a step at the blogging world again and invest a little time into it.

Did I mention this family stays pretty busy even when we are not trying to?

Now on to the show!

Happy New Years you dirty motherfuckers! By the end of the year I am pretty so worn from the holidays and so ready to start fresh that it feels so good when the clock turns to midnight. This year, I ended it a little differently, by getting super smashed with friends and there no pictures to remember this cause, fun as it was in the start, it just didn't end pretty. Mostly with Papi barfing and clutching his guts together for two days....Papi used to be a hardened party guy, but those days are clearly long over....Papi's guts are not meant for torture, only in small doses. I still cringe at the idea of boozing right now lol

I am not a resolutions kind of guy, I don't set myself up for failure by posting unrealistic goals that I never intend to stand by after a few months. I have goals in mind, realistic things that I would love to do and make sure get done but I'm not going to punish myself if it doesn't happen only to restart the same sad goal the next year. Its a vicious cycle people do to torture themselves and I just don't have the time for it.

I set one main resolution for myself, to always outdo myself a step or two from the previous year. The goal is just to better my situation from the year previous. Thats realistic enough to really have regrets over if I don't somehow improve my life even just a little in one year.

I feel like last year was definitely a year of change for both myself and my family. I found a better job, I watched my son grow from itty bitty to big boy and still growing. We found a newer, nicer home that is bigger and more comfortable for all of us. We cleared alot of old debts and began to enjoy our money a little more than the year before. Mami has grown herself as a mother and I as a father and husband in ways I hadn't imagined an its a never ending learning and growing experience. We also had our very first family vacation! Mami has found a great way to channel her energy as a stay at home mother via her growing blog which has made her many friends and brought her different opportunities. She has discovered her talents as a baker and has seen some success with her online bakery. She puts the NOM in nom nom nom!

Have to say we stayed really busy and had an epic WIN of the year, I have no regrets....

Now as the novelty of the New Year has come and gone, we have begun working on goals as both a family and individually.

Me, I hope to grow and develop in the job I enjoy being apart of so much already, to be apart of the opportunities I am capable of earning. I only need to continue to develop my skills and not get frustrated with myself when I feel like I am not giving enough. I want to spend the year mostly focusing on building us financially. I want to finally see us in a new car and work on building a manageable credit so we can start paving the road for our future. I am not worried about losing weight so much as getting back on track with healthier eating and managing what I put into my body an extra notch. November to December, I just punish my body cause theres just so much good food lol I also want to continue working to cook some more awesome recipes and organize my life a little better. All realistic goals but I'm sure life will move on if I can't do it all.

As a family we have decided to put having a second child on hold. It sounds like a better move to just focus on each other and building on work and finances then we can handle being parents to more than one amazing kid without any stress. However if it happens, then it happens, we are not against it, maybe just want to plan ahead.

Thats my New Year blog in a nutshell. Hope you are looking forward to an awesome year as we are, kudos to you all......

Gotta say, we stayed busy

Mondays Music Moves Me;New Year Edition

2011-01-03T10:00:00.002-05:00

Happy Monday and even better Happy 2011!! Heres my first of hopefully many more music posts on my favorite day of the week!

As always, my friend XmasDolly! is hosting this fun event. Be sure to swing by Youtube, grab yourself some videos and post them in your blog. When you're done, be sure to link in XmasDolly's blog and don't forget to comment on other people's blogs and make a few friends and followers as well.

The theme this week is going to be something new to bring in the New Year. I have a couple new songs to share and hope you enjoy them as well.

Daft Punk- Derezzed from the Tron Legacy Soundtrack. I think its absolutely awesome they did the score for this new movie. The soundtrack is stellar and I can't wait to see this movie, looks pretty sweet!

Deadmau5-Some Chords
I know I posted a Deadmau5 vid last week but he has released his newest album last month and this is my favorite track so far on the new album. The whole album, 4x4=12 is just awesome but I dig this one. The video seems to be a special project that Deadmau5 did and its pretty sweet.

Happy New Year and see you next week!

Thanks for all the love!

2011-01-02T19:49:00.000-05:00

"When you do things right, people will be sure you've done anything at all....."
-Futurama

I just wanted to take a minute to thank everyone who donated to Riley's family as well as to Mami's giveaway.

We decided to go ahead and finish the raffle. Enough time had passed and alot of the donations we were receiving had started to slow down. We didn't feel it would be right to keep pushing something that wasn't doing anything for anyone besides reminding Sandi of her loss.

Mami helped raise $238 in cash donations via paypal which we will be sending in a check to Sandi and her family. Alot of readers have said many great and sweet things and I hope it is something to help Sandi when she needs it most.

If you would like to see all the kind words and posts made on Riley's behalf, please Mami's blog here.....

While I would have loved to be able to give more to my friend in need, it was less about the money as it was about letting her know how much we love her. It was about making sure she knew she wasn't alone and reminding us all to love our little ones with all our hearts and to hug them a little closer.

As parents, it still reminds us which battles are really worth getting into with our crazy monkey. We love that kid and would be crushed to experience what Sandi has gone through. She is a tough, resilient woman and after talking with her a few times, she is doing a great job by loving and missing her son and doing what she can to work on moving forward. She has stated that her family does not end with Riley and they will work on starting a new family when the time is right. Much kudos to her and her husband for not giving up but I wish I could give her back the piece of her heart that is forever missing.

Thanks again for all the support, it is very comforting that there are so many people with such big hearts out there in the blog community.

Cheers to you all!!!

Drum Roll Please.....

2011-01-02T19:13:00.000-05:00

Alright folks, you have waited, you have entered and here you are!!!

Courtesy of random.org....

The winner for the $30 CSN giveaway is Michelle at MommyLovesStillettos

Congrats on your win and thanks to everyone for entering. I hope to have more giveaways at one point and thanks to CSNstores.com for allowing to have something to give to you, the readers.

I got more responses and entries than I anticipated so kudos to you for joining and following.

Happy New Year to everyone out there and see you next round....

Blog, Riley and free shit!

2010-12-29T08:00:00.001-05:00

Just going to touch up on a few things while I have a moment. This blog is my favorite place to rant, rave and otherwise be a silly silly bloggy man.
I'm going to cut back down on all the different little projects I was taking on here i.e. Fawk You Friday, Sunday Music Rant and all that stuff. I am sure I will partake in these things if I'm feeling it but I don't want to feel like a jackass just because if I don't. Its obvious I have readers but I'm not even sure who is all that interested. I made a couple friends like MichellePixie, Boobies!(my favorite of the bloggy world), ThinkTankMomma and a few others(sorry if I didn't mention you) who are good friends to my blog and my family. I just want to keep enjoying my blog and whatever I feel the need to bring to it. I just don't want it to become stale or for me to just stop doing it all together. I tried doing these random things and it simply is hard to keep up with when computer time is limited between home and work. Love it and enjoy it just taking two steps back to see what else I can do with it.

However, I do enjoy the Monday Music thing and hope it keeps on but the same rules apply, if I don't feel it...well...it is what it is.

Now that the holidays are over, I would like to remind everyone of our good friend, Riley who passed away a few weeks ago. While the holidays have come and gone, the sadness of losing a child will always be there. Sandi and her family are grieving but are making the best of their memories of such a great kid. However they are in need of your help and I ask anyone reading this to still feel free to click on the banner in the top right to help in any way you can. Mami is still coordinating a raffle going well into January and we could use your help with donations for the raffle or just donations to her family.
Anything helps and whatever you can offer makes a difference to them....

Mami is an awesome lady and has been working hard to keep this going but things have really slowed down. Find out all the details of The Riley Memorial fund here.....

Like free shit? I have only four entries so far so sign on to my giveaway for a $30 giveaway to csnstores.com! This is probably an easy kill in the giveaway department so quit fucking around and sign up already! The giveaway ends this Sunday, January 2nd so don't be a hater and get your name on the list!
I'm debating on doing some reviews for the blog but am sort of still 'on the fence' about it because I am not sure how to get started, not sure I want to commit that time, need a blog button and some other things I'm weighing around in my brain.

Peace out crackers.....

I'm highly animated even though I'm decomposing....

2010-12-28T09:00:00.001-05:00

                                          "I'll be home for Christmas, if only in my dreams...."

                "Away from integrity, she writes a book in a hand that nobody will read.
                                             -No Use For A Name

"When I'm 60, I hope to be thinking; 'Somewhere my wife is being born..'"
                                             -Patton Oswalt's tweet about Hefner's engagment

        Ahoy crackers! This ship is still afloat. Papi needed to take a little time focus on the holiday season and get his shit together a little bit. In all honesty, the blog was feeling more like a chore and less fun like I always intend it to be. I have readers and I obviously draw a little traffic but I was obligating myself to certain parts of this blog that was taking time away from family and focsuing on other things. With that on top of thinking of my Dad, the sadness Riley's death has brought us and the intense homesickness we both feel at this time year, it has made me lethargic and soul weary. We've been hustling our asses around the past few weeks between work and home dealing with the holidays. Honestly you haven't missed much when I'm actually home, I end up laying around in my underwear watching reruns of Intervention, Hoarders and Storage Wars with Mami and getting yelled at by my child in addition to playing with him.

We had a great holiday this year, it was the first time in the two years Booshie and I have been to my Aunt's for Christmas. Last year, we were too disconnected because of the problems we were having with my sister and the year before, I destroyed the wheel system to the car on the way there. We planned out our shopping and had the tree up three weeks ago. Considering how lazy I am in general and how insane people are just before, it was awesome to have it all done. All the credit goes to Mami however, she can whip up a plan in seconds....I'm just really good at swiping my card and carting around a sleepy infant.

I also saw my uncle who I've only seen twice before in my life, the last being at my Mom's funeral. He is fighting some serious health issues with diabetes and I think his final days are over. I don't know my uncle and he has sort of been known as the local douchebag for his poor choices in life. The last time I saw him, he had the burly biker type physique, now hes skinny, sickly and simply not doing well. It was sad realizing I could be attending his funeral soon. I'm not sure I'm going to have regrets with this or just not care outside of the fact that the death of a family I don't know is sad.

We ate and we were merry for sure, we are the biggest dorks for the holidays. We love the decorations, we love giving gifts and the togetherness it brings for all of us. Its our anti-consumerist whore statement and Jesus loving craziness that people become so obsessed with this time of year and let it turn them into the biggest assholes. To anyone reading this who IS that asshole, YOU are whats wrong with this country and human nature in general. I hope you die! Really, I do cause there are so many fucking people obsessed with spending and literally willing to punch each other in the face for some mindless object that 'they just gotta have'. The meaning just gets lost and its just gross....

Anyhow, after the insanity and craziness, we are happy its over. The monkey got alot of nice gifts, Mami got some nice gifts and we got nice things for the house. We have been in need of a new entertainment center and an all in one printer and now we have it. Mami haven't been getting anything for each other for Christmas. We take the money sent to us and buy things for our home and for the monkey. Personally, I don't want for much. I have my family, my sweet job and am overall happy. Tax time is my Christmas time! However I am enjoying my Iron Man 'DJ style' headphones....I rule!

Here are some photos, I hope you all had a good Christmas and look forward to an awesome year in 2011!

A portion of my brother's head hiding behind his wife...

My little cousin, making faces to make the monkey laugh...

More little cousins, doing what they do by being kids...

Present time! Someone would rather be on his Buzz Lightyear ride on, fuck all the other presents!

Someone is finally enjoying himself!

Another beautiful Christmas memory with my favorite little man.......

Flying down to Rio just to meet my friend Cleo....

2010-12-27T21:10:00.000-05:00

Thats right you crazy kids, I may be missing in action but I would never miss an opportunity to share the music I love so much. I promise to get back on track with the rest of my blog soon, especially now that the holidays are done and over with(the most vital time in my new career in both retail and as a parent).

Same rules apply as always, this is brought to you by my good friend Xmas Dolly! and her little crew of awesome people who brought this fantastical Monday event for all of us. Rummage through youtube and find videos that meet your fancy and post them in a blog, this week's theme is a freebie, they are my most favorite! When you're done, don't forget to link up and rummage through everyone else's music and see what we are all listening to. Rummage Rummage! Also check back with Xmas Dolly each week and check her schedule for weekly music themes and play along each week with the rest of us. I will gladly say I typically gain one or two new followers when I link up and I think thats radtastic. Leaving comments prompts me to do the same and I follow everyone who comments and/or follows. The more the merrier in this music loving boat I say!

This fun weekly event has me deciding to post two songs that have been rocking my face the past few months. They are as catchy as they are badass and I hope you enjoy them as much as I do. The Bumblebeez and Deadmau5 are my current top flavors so I give you two of my favorite songs. To be honest, I could post songs by both musicians all the time but because I love them so much, I give them in small doses.

Enjoy!

The Bumblebeez- Rio

Deadmau5 ft. Kaskade- I Remember

"You can't have a revolution if the music isn't right..."

Monday's Music Moves Me;Christmas Edition!

2010-12-20T19:54:00.000-05:00

Alright, I've been in hiding for long enough. I have missed doing the Monday Music with Xmas Dolly! and her rowdy bunch. Theres been alot going on but theres always alot of music to be heard.

Make sure to stop by her site and see all the classic tunes she's posted as well as all the other people linked up. Grab a few videos off Youtube, make post and then link up yourself. Its always fun and theres alot of good music to be heard so check it out!

I'll post a few tasty jams, these aren't your traditional classics. They are either fun or just plain funny. Who knows? My sense of humor is a bit curved so I doubt everyone will find it as funny as I do. But you know, such is life...

And of course, all you of enjoy your Christmas and don't let the holiday tension ruin the spirit of whats fun about the holidays, family, friends and good times....

Enjoy!

The Vandals- Dance of the Sugar Plum Faeries

The Vandals- Christmas Time for My Penis

South Park Christmas with Mr. Garrison- Merry Fuckin' Christmas!

Giveaway anyone?

2010-12-19T00:16:00.002-05:00

So this week I was given an opportunity to do a giveaway for my readers. What a great way to thank you for following and reading over the past several months by being able to share a little something.

This of course is a first giveaway and I hope to be able to do more in the future but for now, we will keep it simple!

First things first, check out Adjustable Bar Stools, take a browse around and see if theres anything you would like and let me know what you would be enjoying those tasty beverages in. Every house needs a good barstool, otherwise I wouldn't have anything to fall out of in my best times.

Mandatory entries:
-Follow this blog and follow me on Twitter @punkrockpapi
-leave a comment letting me know you follow through Google friend connect and Twitter with your twitter handle

I will keep the drawing short as to see how well this takes off. At 5pm EST, on January 2nd, I will draw the winner via random.org.

Winner will receive a $30 gift certificate to CSN Stores to spend as they please but does not cover shipping and handling. But hey, if you can get such a deal, its worth the extra few bucks!

Looking forward to hearing from you and may the best bloggy blogger win!

Lighting an extra candle....

2010-12-15T11:00:00.002-05:00

                                     "Starry Starry night, paint your palette blue and grey. Look out on a summer day, with eyes that know the darkness in my soul...."
                                               -NOFX

                                      "If I can't be my own, I'd feel better dead...."
                                               -Alice In Chains

So today marks a sad day every year for me. But it seems I won't be thinking fondly of just one person this time of year anymore but two....

Sandi and her family will be saying their goodbyes to little Riley today. I have been to more funerals than I care to admit and nothing is easy about saying goodbye. Add trying to place that little piece of yourself you love so much and spent so little time with, and I just don't know how I would do it without falling apart.

Sandi has been strong and dealing with this at all angles and I commend her. Today she will letting her heart go and I would give anything to be with her and wish her the best. My heart and Mami's are with her today, we have been loving the monkey very much and loving him extra hard. Being a parent, its easy to forget that we fall into a routine sometimes and allow ourselves to be frustrated with the things they do....but now, even though we stand our ground, I am reminded that not all battles need to be fought. Enjoy the laughs, the giggles and even the random mischief they get into....they might not always be there.

Which is why its a coincidence that as Sandi says her goodbyes, I am remembering my father today and the day we all said goodbye.....

I can't believe 13 years have passed already since my father was killed in a car wreck. The facts are still a little unknown still as to what caused him veer off the road and flip his vehicle when he was on his way home from a friends and take him away from us.

Whenever I pass the mile marker on I-25 just before the Erie exit, I am reminded every time.....

I was lucky that my father, even though he had battles of his own to fight, taught me so much about being an adult and taking care of myself. I was pretty self sufficient when he passed away....but its that wound that never fully heals.

My Dad was an awesome, funny, loved a good time, thought deep and enjoyed beers as much as I do. He was a great cook and excellent fisherman! You could hear his laugh a mile away, there was no mistaking when he was around. He graduated early in his youth but may have given up some things when he chose to become a father. He struggled through his years, sometimes he enjoyed going out a little too much and it affected his life down the road. I never suffered or went without because of it but I did have to learn to take care of some things on my own. Food, shelter and clothes...all taken care of, the rest was all me.

He left me with a little of wisdom and knowledge but I know I still had much to learn. I probably wandered the world alone, frustrated, and self destructive for so many years. I could have used my father to kick my ass into shape so many times. He was very open minded to me being independent and finding my own way, not going to school, not succeeding was not an option otherwise.

I will gladly say that I wish he were here today to offer my guidance as Monkey's grandfather. I also know if things didn't happen the way they did, I would not be where I am today and in the beautiful situation with the two most amazing people I know.

Things happen for a reason but I would have given anything to have him still apart of it all. He would have been a great grandfather and an overall awesome guy in his older years....

RIP my little friend Riley and RIP to my father, Lawrance(aka Laughin' Larry), your smiles and laughter lit up our worlds and its a shame you left us so soon. Your wisdom must have been too great.......

Lend a hand if you can....

2010-12-11T23:30:00.002-05:00

Seeing as this tragedy has struck so close to home, I could not be frustrated with being so far away from home. With Sandi being such a good friend and the terrible sadness she has to carry with her, I wish there was more I could do for her. I am not one that is willing to sit idle and watch people suffer, especially those close to me and our family.

Even though we cannot be there to offer our support, it doesn't mean we can't at least try to offer any aid that is available. Mami has been blogging for over a year and has made some good friendships and made connections with companies over the web. I have been blogging almost 10 months and while I may not be connected to companies, I have made a few friendships and generate at least enough hits to get someone to possibly stop and read.

This is our chance to use our resources and offer to anyone to help with what they can. Sandi and her family aren't expecting anything or wanting to feel obligated. However, as we are in a time of year dedicated to good will towards each other, I hope to pass on some of the love to a family who need it the most right now.

Mami has put together a link for paypal on her blog and will be contacting any companies she has done reviews with and I will be trying to talk to my work about a possible donation. Any donations from the companies will be put together in an auction and all proceeds will go to Sandi and her family to aid them when they need it most.

Mami's Bakery will also be donating 25% of online sales and any additional earnings from our sales at a local cafe will also go to this fund.

We cannot give Sandi her son back but as she has so much to deal with in addition to the loss of her son, if we can somehow make it easier for her and her husband to mourn on their own, then we hope we are doing whats right.

Please visit Mami's blog for further details or click the link in the top right corner to donate....

If you can't contribute, thats is ok, we just want to open any lines of communication to make this possible. We appreciate any thoughts and consideration in being able to offer a hand as well as your heart....

Holding on just a little tighter....

2010-12-11T22:46:00.001-05:00

So I'm breaking the routine of my blog break a little. I feel there are just some things that need to be said and my heart has been hurting for a few days now. This week is already hard to forget as I am remembering my father on the 15th when he passed away 13 years ago and now we have another loss on our hands.

My friend Sandi, a close friend from my high school days at Skyview and I have known for many years, lost her 17 month old son, Riley this past Thursday. I am not too sure of what happened but my heart has broken for her and her family.

As soon I found out the news late Thursday night through a random Facebook check, I read her update and almost couldn't believe what I was reading. I actually had to make sure she wasn't talking about a pet or just somehow I wasn't reading between the lines. Fortunately through her friend in Memphis, he kept me as informed as he could.

Mami and Sandi got pregnant around the same time, almost a month between each other. We shared stories through the entire pregnancies, sent our well wishes when he was born a happy, healthy boy as they did the same for us. We have shared stories about them growing up and of course watched through pictures shared on our Facebook pages. We talked often of our boys finally getting to play together and becoming close friends.....

I never got to meet Riley but I know his mother very well and feel like I got to watch this little man grow as I watching my own and I am very sorry I could not see them play together or that he did not grow into the funny, loving young man he was meant to be.

Sandi has been my friend for many years because of her sweet, loving heart, her open mind to the world, her love of good music and her awesome sense of humor. I had begun to see this in little Riley and hoped our boys could be great friends....the monkey doesn't have many options in kids his age, they are either too old or too young for him. He and Riley were only a month apart, Riley would have had a great friendship with the monkey like I have with Sandi.

Mami and I have been sharing our feelings over this. I am not one to tear but it has brought many to my eyes to imagine what my poor friend has to go through. I have been holding my son a little close to me the past couple of days because I couldn't picture my world without him. When he is doing things he shouldn't, I have stopped myself...thinking, is it really worth being that frustrated? It has stopped our world and made us really think about things. To go home and see all this things laying about but knowing he would never be around to smile and laugh the way he does would make me crumble.

The world is just not fair sometimes, we hear so often about children being hurt and taken from the world, but you never truly understand it or ever expect it to happen because its not supposed to happen. This has hit so close to home that it has broken my heart everytime I think about it.

Children are an amazing part of life and if you have never been a parent then theres something about it you can never understand. It doesn't make you ignorant to the concept of children but to feel for and love a child the way a parent does cannot be shown or described in words. A child is a piece of yourself that you give to the world that cannot be given back, when they die, so does that very special part of you......

I have buried my parents as well as some of my friends but noone should have to ever bury their children. I see the horrible sadness on my Grampa's face every time we talk about him. Some things you wish all to your heart that you could fix....

Mami and Sandi became friends through their love of their kids. There are obviously alot of moms in the world and everyone has their own way of doing things. Mami and I have tried to be as open minded and even a little 'untraditional' in the raising of our child because his ultimate happiness is our goal. He became priority number one the day we found out we were pregnant. Sandi got that and shared her thoughts with us and her Mami understood each other as parents. These moments are few and far between.....

RIP little Riley, I hope your next stage in your journey takes you to great places and we are very sorry to see you go. Thanks for sharing your laughter, your life and your love with all of us.....

Papi FAIL, taking a bloggy break!

2010-12-05T21:07:00.000-05:00

                        "You can't have a revolution if the music isn't right...."
                                                   -Deadmau5

         So you see the Homer right? Its another Papi fail! I hate to say it but right now I haven't been feeling my blogging as much as I would like. I have been enjoying blogging and meeting some of the cool bloggers out there. Its also been fun to put my thoughts out in the world and share music with good people.

I have like I have been backtracking a little when I blog however. Trying to blog often is not an easy task when you always have reasons to be busy. Things are picking up and going well with work and I feel like its becoming a bit of an extra task and as I'm pushing myself to keep up, I'm starting to feel like my blog is being thrown together and I'm not getting what I really want to say out there.

I figure its a good time to step back a little and continue to focus my extra time with my work and my time with my family as always.

There are times when I feel like I have so much to get out of mind and into a blog, so I can't say I'll never be blogging again. I think right now is a good time to step back and re focus and enjoy whatever happens.

Thanks as always for being friendly readers and enjoying the blog....I tip my beer to you!

See you around bloggy folk...

The Masses are asses.....

2010-12-01T20:35:00.001-05:00

Alright, so its been bugging me a little pretty much since Thanksgiving has come and gone. Everyone, everywhere has suddenly become negative as fuck!!!

I've engaged myself in conversations with fellow employees, friends and family, I've been reading people's statuses on FB and overall interaction in public has reminded me what time of year we are in....and it sucks.

Somehow once, Thanksgiving comes and goes, then all of a sudden people lose track of whats really important because Christmas is just around the corner. The oversight because of the stress of the upcoming weeks turns people into these bitter messes.

I've had several conversations about people being generally unhappy with something in life, and any time a positive scenario was introduced, automatically shot down each time. I had a discussion with an employee where I had actually correct her and point out the exact steps to find a complete resolution because every time I tried to help resolve her issue, its was an automatic 'go to my dark cloud' kind of instinct.

I don't know if its the holidays coming for sure or if everyone is generally pissed off this week but its rampant and I sure as hell hope it doesn't continue. There are so many awesome things going on as we end the year soon, so whats the point in finding bitterness in everything?

I really think if people spent as much time on being in a better mood as they did being pissed off, they might get a little more accomplished. Focus that ridiculous bitterness on something constructive already!

IF its a Holiday thing, then the point is missed every year. I was disappointed in people last Christmas. Usually people get wound up for a month and then get into a better mood towards the end. But nooooo, people were just pissed off the whole time.

*EDIT: I also wanted to point out because its been pissing me off and I completely spaced blogging about it. The freezer at our work caught on fire and while not a huge deal, we had to evacuate the store, deal with the Fire Dept and all that jazz. While there were firetrucks everywhere, cones blocking traffic in and out of the store and ALL of our employees waiting outside, not to mention the sign saying "CLOSED TEMPORARILY", there was still a flow of customers trying to get in. The worst part? They were mad they couldn't get in to shop, one even yelled one of our employee because of it. Look assface, the safety of my team AND my customers is more important than your shopping needs, please keep that in consideration before you go off on someone.
I don't want to do that again with the masses. This is such a fun time of year with many things to look forward to and enjoy.

Please try not to waste it on being an asshole, remember why these times are supposed to be fun. Trust me, its not because of all the frivolous spending you are doing.....

Don't be apart of the masses cause the masses are asses.....

I love you so much, its retarded.....

2010-11-30T01:44:00.000-05:00

I have so many favorite pictures of Mami, but this one always touches my heart so no wonder you see it so often.

This is literally our only photo taken together. We take lots of great photos but just haven't taken any together. Its a work in progress....

                              "The song was inspired by a friend. She was walking with her husband one day and just burst into hysterical tears because she realized that one day one of the two of them would have to watch the other die."
                                         -Ben Gibbard explaining the lyrics to "What Sarah Said"

                              "If I was a flower growing wild and free, all I'd want is to be my sweet honey bee..."
                                         -Barry Louis Polisar

                               "My life, you electrify my life. Let's conspire to re-ignite all the souls that would beg just to feel alive. I'll never let you go, if you promise not to fade away."
                                         -Muse

                                "I don't mind if you don't mind, cause I don't shine if you don't shine...."
                                          -The Killers

         Today is me and Mami's official one year anniversary. We got married by a Justice of The Peace in a small office while our almost 4 month old slept quietly in his carseat. We want a giant celebration one day but for the time being we decided we wanted to be together forever anyways. At the time, we already knew we wanted noone else and nothing more than each other, getting the official 'marriage' was more of a business contract so we could get her and the baby on our insurance and reap the benefits of taxes before the end of the year and so Mami could share her family's name.

We didn't take pictures because this was not how we wanted to be married. When you love someone, its less about the 'contract' we sign and more about how we celebrate our life together. We were celebrating this long before marriage became something to consider. I enjoy my life as a husband, father and Papi to my family and love the way we are continuing to do things.

I couldn't think of a better way to describe how I feel about my first anniversary so I put together this letter for my wife because this week is all about her and us.

If you would like to hear about we came to be...read this awesome blog and scour through Mami's lovey dovey tribute to us.

For the rest of you, enjoy......

Mami,

   Today celebrates the first day we became a 'legally' married couple, a day we finalized on paper that there is simply nothing more we want in life than each other. However, I look at it differently, I look at it as we have so many firsts in our relationship that we always like to celebrate. The first day we talked, the first day we ~~had really sloppy drunk relations~~ made a baby, the day we became a couple, the first time we said I love you.........we may have been only married a year but we have spent two beautiful years together as two people who love each other.
You found me when I felt I had nothing, and you gave me everything. We came from two ends of the world in search of things we didn't quite understand and as soon as we met each other, even then, it made sense.

How did I know? I know now what I didn't realize then that for all the patience I lacked, I waited for you. For all the times you tried to push me back, I waited patiently to see if you were still interested. Every single relationship before never came this close, I was quick to get pissed off or just give up.

I took things slowly because even when we still figuring each other out, we still understood each other and the last thing I ever wanted to do was fuck that up.
The more we spent getting to know each other, the more I knew everything was worth the wait. I never met anyone like you and I will never meet anyone else. We knew what we were doing when we got into this. The monkey may have gotten us into this initially, but we were already setting the stage.

We are the after school special gone right. We are always looking out for the other, we give as much as we take, never expecting the unexpected. Theres nothing I wouldn't do for you and nothing you wouldn't do for me.

I used to be so suspicious of people when I got into relationships and with you, I just let it go. Not once have I never felt complete and utter open trust with you. We share our thoughts, our dreams and our life together.

You are as much of my life as I am yours. Whenever I fall, you pick me up and when you stumble I catch you.

You are a beautiful mother, a loving wife and I still continue to love you more for all that you give me every day we spend together. I can't ever imagine life without you, all I see is so many amazing years, a beautiful future together with dreams chased and built and grandkids and so many gross things that its not even blogworthy.

Thank you for reminding me of who I really am and for loving me only the way you know how.

I love you so much, its retarded......

Mami's Music Moves Me....

2010-11-28T23:50:00.000-05:00

Sooooo today is our usual Monday Music run with my good friend and fellow music lover Xmasdolly! who is also good friends with my super homie, The Boobies!. We all post music, share some great jams and start our week out right. So dig through your Youtube favorites, post them and link up so we can see what sort of music movies YOU!

This week is freebie week soooooooo it really couldn't have come at a better time. Tomorrow, Mami and I are celebrating our very first anniversary so ~~fume in jealous rage~~ share our joy through music that we love so much.

Here are a few picks that are Mami and Mami alone, in ways that remind me of how much I love her and how much she touches my heart daily.

For my Booshie, My Mami, My love....

The Bouncing Souls- I Think That The World

"No days and nights could brighten my life as much as one moment with you..."

This has been my song for her since I found it. It pretty much says it all....

The dancing jackass in the video also says it all for Mami...

The Yeah Yeah Yeahs- The Love I'm Searching For

"I don't think I'll find the love I want, the love I'm searching for in the machine..."

It's a sweet song and one of our Karen O's greatest. I listened to it alot when Mami and I were first discovering our relationship. It seems like so long ago already...

Weezer- Put Me Back Together

"When I fall down, you put me back together..."

My ode to Mami, she always picks me up when I fall down.

Barry Louis Polisar- All I Want Is You

"If you were a castle, I'd be your moat and if you were an ocean, I'd learn to float..."

Hands down, me and Mami's song. It is a defintiely for pseudo wedding/vow renewals in the years to come.